大地不属于人类，而人类属于大地

无意间读到一篇于18年前的报道，说地球已经有四十六亿的岁数，如果把这四十六亿浓缩成30天，生命在第10 天形成，而人类，只不过在一分钟前出生。。。

美国印第安酋长西雅图在100多年前就曾指出：“大地不属于人类，而人类属于大地。一切都是相互关连，所有发生在大地的事情，必将回应到人类身上……对大地的伤害，是对造物主的轻蔑。如果你弄脏了自己的环境，总有一天会窒息在你所丟弃的垃圾之中。”

这一句让我想到了wall-E。地球被人类遗弃，因为它的环境不再适合人类居住。而垃圾的罪魁祸首，是人类。
也让我想到avatar里，人类把贪婪建筑在别的星球上。omaticaya 族群参杂了原住民色彩，是我喜欢的。

原住民把大地归于造物主, 他们爱他们的造物主，也爱这片大地，完美的融化于这片大地。偏偏，他们却是被打压、遗忘的族群。澳洲甚至出现stolen generations，既是原住民的小孩被拿走，以「白化」原居民。。。

而有着信仰造物主的其他人类，却肆无忌惮的摧毁这片大地！多么无耻。

人类不过在一分钟前出生。
人类不过是宇宙中连细菌都不如的微生物,又何得何能,认为世界是属于他们的?
愚蠢的人类，甚至还用国际、肤色、性别、宗教、信仰，来区别人类。
殊不知，人类属于大地。

遇难记

从来不知道水灾会为我带来什么麻烦，因为monsoon间，印象中小时侯家里只淹过一次水，不严重，过后每次家乡哪里淹水也只是抱着看戏心态。。。这次终于体会到水的“杀伤”力了。。。

接近一个礼拜没下雨，有些反常。昨天半夜又突然下起雨来。。。
早上，和爸妈、三伯去哥打巴鲁佛教会馆参加大伯的丧礼。
大伯享年97高龄，很遗憾没机会见他最后一面。但是能够活到这样高龄，死而无憾。

接近傍晚七时我们开车回吉赖。老天好像特别爱哭。。。泪直流不停。有倾盆大雨、有毛毛细雨。。。
到了Bukit Sireh,我们得送三伯回家。
三伯家在蛮偏僻的小山上。需要经过一段小路才会抵达。

刚进小路不久，凡经过之处必水花四溅。路途很黑暗，没有路灯，爸爸也看不到前路是否有更多积水。。。眼见水有五公分高，爸妈有些犹豫要不要往前驾驶。
但是三伯坚持说：“这是最深（指大概五公分）的水了，前面是较高的地方，前方有火车路的地方是没有淹水的。。。”过了不久，真的没什么水了，就放下心中大石。
但是右手边有几辆车子停着，显然前方有什么问题，不敢向前。

爸爸依然向前驾驶，因为三伯要回家，说前方应该没什么水。
我们又再次驶入了有水的一段路，水看起来很浅。。。
前方又很黑暗，根本不能预测水的深度。 所以继续往前走。
之后越觉得不对劲，因为水位越来越深。这回深到车轮的深度。
爸爸应该是想：既然都驾到这里了，就驾快一点，反正退后也很困难。
只见水位越升越高。坐在wira里面的我们，开始担心过不了这临时形成的小河。。。
眼前的水还是没有尽头，驾驶了接近400m, 我们毫无退路，也不能停止。爸只有往前冲。。。
爸爸车子引擎霍地作响，车子与水的摩擦很吃力，加上引擎进水了，开始丧失功能。
水位已经高得足以遮住前面的车灯了，车灯再也照不了前方，我们担心的问题出现了--水开始溢进车内！

我和妈妈开始荒起来。你可以想象那种心情吗？车子被水围着，进退两难，伸手不见五指，前方大约还有100m才有车子（代表前方一百米后有陆地），水又快速的溢进车内，车内又有82岁高龄的老人家，车子引擎开始丧失功能。。。我心里想：从车子出去后，我们四人会不会被洪水冲走？明天报子头条会不会是：一家四口参加丧礼后，回家路途被洪水冲走。。。？

就在车子“死火”之前，我们来得及把四面车镜迅速摇下。。。
因为听说如果车子被水包围，一定要把窗子摇下，这样当车内、车外的水压一样了，才可以把车门打开。。。
成功把门打开后，我们走出水中。这时爸爸的手机被水冲走了。。。幸好我来得及拯救我的手机和camera，也来得及把张爱玲的一百句、妈妈一双美鞋、一包dokong(三伯给的水果）胡乱的丢上dashboard。

水深至大腿，我和妈妈扶着三伯，走向前方一百米向别人求救。雨水（洪水？ ）流过我们脚间，虽然不至于把我们冲走，但力量强大得我们得互扶才不至于跌倒。
爸爸则忍痛把车子留在水中，接受二度打击。。。

走了50m，三伯气喘病发。吵着要掏出身上的inhaler。所幸找到。多害怕inhaler 会掉进水里。。。
只见他扑、扑、扑、扑、扑连续五下，我看傻了眼，因为我不记得可以这样连续喷五下，而且他的technique完全错了。但我来不及阻止！没办法，在水上病发很难控制。。。
到了岸上，他又连续喷了几下。。。

多谢遇到两位贵人，把妈妈、三伯和我载回三伯家。放下三伯后，我把inhaler药盒拿起来看，上面写着：caution, it is very dangerous to use overdose.我告诉三伯，不可以一次用那么多puff.
这一回我领悟到，医生一定要好好给病人明确instruction，尤其哮喘病，不然，这可以是致命的失误啊~！

爸爸的车只有豆般小，水稍微退后可见两小车登。。。

路人帮忙把爸爸的车推上岸。


我们就坐在贵人货车后厢里。。。

妈妈落难。。。

我落难，手里还拿着险些便咸菜的张爱玲一百句。。。。

Optical illusion

Look at the picture below. what can u see?

What can u see?Got u!!

无聊假期>书

期盼已久的“假期“终于来了。。。
其实并没假放，是自己安排时间“腾出”一个月的假期罢了。
想想别人用elective时间去学习，本人却跑回家，名誉上是写report,事实上根本没那心情呀~~偷懒一会儿啊~~~promise will be hardworking when go back~haha
无所事事接近两个礼拜了，其实觉得挺无聊的。。。
人生好像很多目标却又实行不了。
带了几本书、零零散散的notes和raw datas 回来，下场是被我丢在行李箱冻结，翻也没翻过。。。
这假期应该是最后一个可以过得那样惬意的假期了。。。第四年明年二月就结束了。
大五不能浪费时间，一定要好好拼了。

我放任自己睡觉。一天睡足9、10个小时。你可以说我懒，但我回宿舍就没得这样睡。
我放任自己玩facebook的game。这样我玩闷了，回宿舍就没那么想玩了。
我放任自己看课外书。因为平常课业书那么多，不能心平气和的看课外书，不爽快。
其实家里的书海（书海夸张了些，应该只是一个小湖）是我探索不完的宝藏。
我没有办法看完这些书，所以每次回家，我会挑1,2本故事书来读。
这一次挑了哥哥的Rose Madder,by Stephen King.
Stephen King 的故事一直是我想看，但没勇气也没毅力看的。
希望我能够看完它。上次听米雪说关于马拉松赛跑杀人事件还挺有趣的。

这次妹妹回国，碰巧遇上我们喜爱逛的--书展~~这是第一次到the mines观光《书香书展》。由于沙登离um一段距离，所以之前都没机会去。多谢表妹阿清载我们姐弟妹去~~
之前去过KLCC《海外华文书展》，很大型。第一次站在浩瀚书海中，会有不知所措的感觉，不懂要买什么。而且人一多就有窒息的感觉。。。

《书香书展》较小型，华文书居多，但也有MPH摊子。MPH的书随时都买到，所以只买中文书

看到《大象的眼泪》一书（Water For Elephants， by Sara Gruen) ,关于一个即将毕业医学生, 父母双亡后跳上一列马戏团火车，驶向一段不同方向的人生。首先引我注目是因为题目以动物为主，其次因为那是07年畅销书，也是名嘴Oprah推荐一书。
但那最后一本书一角被折烂了，所以不买。如果完整一定买！而且本身比较喜欢原版，不太喜欢翻译版的。

最后只买了四本：
1。解读张爱玲一百句。刘峰杰。喜欢看这样的书。别人解读的，自己就不需花太多时间去了解张爱玲这个文学才女。认识张爱玲就只限《色。戒》，要看她的作品也不知何处开始。其实是被书中的几句话吸引：“生命是一袭华美的袍，爬满了蚤子。”“父母大都不懂得子女，而子女往往看穿父母的为人。”
2。藏在故事后面的心灵。刘庸。一直都喜欢他的书。此书引用短篇寓言故事，适合睡前看一篇
3。澳洲海外情。蔡澜。澳洲---妹妹读书的地方，有一天我会去征服你~~对蔡澜的认识是从报子专栏，印象深刻是他这个美食家竟组队到彭亨深山吃猫三王榴莲！还有他是倪匡的老友鬼鬼。
4。你总有爱我的一天。张小娴。书名很土，但是她的书迷。这本书在火车上看，没一小时半就看完了。。。没以前故事惊心动魄。只喜欢她的长篇小说，不喜欢散文。其中《雪地里的天使蛋卷》，《情人无泪》，Channel A系列和《月夜宝石》是我较喜欢的。期待《月夜宝石2》赶快出版~~~~

妹妹买尼采Nietzshe文集，弟弟买鬼故事书。

妹妹送给我一本很好笑的“书”。。。好笑之处，因为它很迷你~~~

那华文PMR书是一般大小的书，第二本是我们常带在身边类似pocket dictionary的迷你书。再来就是妹妹送的“In Troubled Times".她说读我们这一科的很容易depressed,所以需要这附有鼓励词句的书来陪伴我。。。谢谢啦。。。我还真喜欢里面的quotes呢~>-<

too small to read right....well, it says:"Those who don't know how to weep with their whole heart, don't know how to laugh either."好贴切啊~~

Time for Miracle

Fall in love with this "2012" soundtrack by Adam Lambert,runner up of american idol season 8~~

A Little Pain

A Little pain, soundtrack from "Nana" by Olivia Lufkin- an American-Japanese mixed blood singer...One of my favourite songs in my playlist~This is the 1st time i am looking at its translation~

Travel to the moon
You're asleep, as you work out your dreams
There's no one here
While the light of the stars toys with me

In order to become strong
I have to remember how to smile
If we're together, I can do it

* Realize that...
I'm here waiting for you
Even if the future is different from now
I'm here waiting for you
I keep on shouting
I'm sure all I have to do
Is pull in the thread that connects our hearts
So the person I was back then
Would open her eyes
No need to cry

Travel in silence
I can reach you if I stretch out my hands
The only memory I have of you
Is so far away

I can hear your voice
If I close my eyes
Even a little pain
Would be nice

Look at me
I'm here waiting for you
Even if you get lost, blown away by the wind
I'm here waiting for you
I look up at the sky
I was protecting my heart
With outstretched hands
Until the person you were back then
Looked back
No need to cry

(Feel something, feel nothing
Listen closely, listen closely)
Wide open ears
Disarm the dream tickler
In the constant moment
(You will find me where it's quiet
Listen closely, listen closely)
Let the blood flow
Through all the spaces
Of the universe

诱惑

又再一次败给你。。。从不知道如何去拒绝你。。。
每次听闻你的消息，都怦然心跳，不知该远离你？还是靠近你？
再这样下去，我快要认不得自己了。
每次被你操控着。。。想拒绝，却总在最后一分钟卸下防备。
我的身心有如被绳子牵着，悠悠地向你走去。
投入你的怀抱。。。
我三、五分钟就解决了你。。。
我恨死了我自己。。。
坠入你的诱惑之中。。。
执迷不悟。。。



















kl gate burger,你这个美食混蛋。

狂欢~

已经没心情去理data了。。。今天没有我要的case。。。听护士说早上到傍晚也只有4个case。。。
没朋友陪伴多么无聊啊~~多数的朋友周末都不去A&E哒。。。
想回家了。。。想家人。
想看看家里的傻狗长大了吗？家里有水果吃吗？房间的窗口装修得怎样？要看什么书？

小狗不知叫什么名呢？

傻狗爱咬人，连按摩脚的棍也不放过。。。爸说它偷偷咬走晒着的衣服~

傻狗虽然不漂亮，没有高贵的血统，但它绝对是精力充沛的~~
不好意思，孤单是一个人的狂欢~~

下雨天

最近天气怎么了。。。
每每到了下午四、五点就开始下雨。。。
原本约好要带朋友去夜市走走，怎知时间一到就下起倾盆大雨~~超失望的！
原本要再这个月展开跑步减肥计划。。。哈哈，有个借口可以偷懒了。。。
一是傍晚一到就下雨，二是在A&E跑不开。。。
elective目标是三十个subjects,但符合条件的病人平均一天只出现一个。。。
现在只有十二个subjects。。。离目标还有十八个。。。哎
今天为了配合白裤子穿了黑色高跟鞋，结果站了5、6个小时就开始疼痛了。。。
后脚还起了一个泡~
明天绝不穿了。虽然有时爱美但还要命啊~~
真是影响学习心情啊~~巴不得回房换鞋子 。
还是平底鞋好。

A&E

星期五的A&E很精彩。。。
两个CPR(人工呼吸）。。。
一个motor vehicle accident...做bilateral prophylactic chest drain...结果病人失血超过七百毫升被送进OT (operation theatre)
一个myasthenia gravis 病人
还有身上各处淋巴球肿大，脾脏肝脏皆肿大，却拒绝西医治疗法，服用中药， 最终因为呼吸困难而进来的病人。

第一个CPR我错过了，病人死了，家属有整整15-20人进进出出，有人哭有人念经，气氛凝重。
第二个CPR有机会凑上一脚，chest compression轮流做了三十分钟（很多人轮流做，基本上我按了30秒就觉得累）。最后病人也没被救活。。。听说病人是孤儿。没有一把鼻涕一把眼泪的家属，只有一个阿伯，应该是孤儿院代表。
总会见到极端的例子。一种是有家人的病人，另一种则相反。
有家人关心的，很幸福。看过一个盲了的MAKCIK，儿子无微不至在旁照顾，把身边发生的事情一一一告诉她，做她的双眼。
没家人，很孤单。身边的人皆撇清关系，没人想留下照顾一个和自己没血缘关系的人。
那孤儿的丧礼很凄凉吧。没有嚎啕大哭的家属。

哭，是因为对死者有了感情。
哭，是因为舍不得。
哭，是因为死者已在心中烙下痕迹。
人生于这个世界上不是要被记得吗？
如果死了，没有留下脚印，好像没来过这世界。

The Memory Keeper's Daughter

Just finished reading The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards.
It's story about a Dr giving away his Down Syndrome daughter, which was born soon after her healthy twin brother and how this complicates his life, his wife's and his son's as well.
The front part was quite dragging...
And then How could the Dr leave the secret without telling his wife and son, and died of heart attact?这叫报应。。。
the middle of the story is rich of emotional and psychological details...but ended quite abruptly without much of it...
Simply my own opinion,overall quite touching la...
What's next?

Durian buffet...

Finally had chance to eat durian buffet at SS2...Durian---the fear factor for the foreigners, but we love it!
Starting from RM10 and above, you can eat as much as you can...
The more expensive you pay, the better the quality of the durian...
But by thinking of durian's sugars content and calories...normally i only eat 3-4 biji then i will stop.
Today really ate a lot, i think more than 20....never eaten so many durian in my life...
Tomorrow when i pee really feel scared that my urine will attract ants...
My pancreas has to work so hard to secrete insulin...I think only the youngsters dare to devour like that, because when you are old you have lots of health factors to consider...
I miss papa's durian pulut.

completed minor posting, then elective

Finished my minor posting last week. Ended on last Friday with end of posting test.
Not really study for this exam. One of the question, causes of optic disc swelling and it's management...i left the page entirely blank and not even attempt it.really交白卷。 Coz i never study about it. And never paid attention while our friend was presenting the topic. So sorry...
Actually some of the aetiologies crossed in my mind, but i never attempt any word...coz for me by blinding attempting will show my ignorant. yeah, I Am at first. this is not good. will try to attempt next time.

Many first timess for doing procedures like giving intramuscular injection, setting lines, suturing, wound dressing etc. Funny funny experiences in accident&emergency(A&E) posting...One of it was inserting a urinary catheter. A Dr told me i have to squeeze the penis a bit in order not to let the local anaesthetic agent to regurgitate back and i had to hold it for 5 minutes for the anaesthetic drug to take its effect....what...anyhow have to get used to it~~

My elective topic is regarding non-invasive ventilation(NIV) in A&E setting in UM...erm...
The detail about NIV i ady forgotten. Have to revise before i go to see Dr I. Otherwise cant answer his questions...Now only i know that he is so influential and ppl call him boss...that terrifies me...>-<

Really don't like to go alone, work alone.:'( Luckily i have friends who are posted in A&E~~

蜡笔小新Crayon Sin Chan

Yoshito Usui was dead after disappearing for few days after he went trekking.
Will Crayon Sin Chan continues to be published?hopefully, like Doraemon.
Someone to imitate his style. to continue his comic. But it will never be the same anymore.
I am not his comic fans, but i read his comic.
以前觉得臼井仪人的画风粗糙、太过简单草率，小新又色又废又没礼貌。。。
但现在想想，这就是他的风格！
以五岁小孩的眼光，讽刺日本黑道、堕胎潮、拜金女。。。
ai , 人死了， 什么都变可惜、珍贵了。。。

追忆蜡笔小经典对白：

小新：有酱油卖吗？
鱼铺老板：没有。
小新：有芥末卖吗？
鱼铺老板：没有。
小新：什么都没有还敢开店!

小毛：我妈妈是硕士，爸爸是博士。
小新：有什么了不起！
小毛：你爸妈是什么士？
小新：我爸爸是男士，我妈妈是女士。

美伢(小新的妈妈)：小新，你又开电视了。
小新：我又不是要看电视。
美伢：那你在做什么？
小新：我在核对报纸上的电视节目表有没有印错。

小新：老师，我要上厕所。
老师：不行，现在是上课时间，刚才下课怎么不去？
小新：下课时间那么宝贵，用来上厕所多可惜呀！

小新：美伢，你说做任何事，必须有始有终，不可以半途而废，对不对？
美伢：没错。
小新：那，连续剧今天是完结篇，你不能阻止我看完。

美伢：游泳真好。
小新：美伢，你愈来愈像鱼了。
美伢：你是说像美人鱼吗？
小新：不是，你的鱼尾纹愈来愈多了。

美伢：爸妈今晚有事，要很晚才回来。
小新：那我会很累耶！
美伢：为什么？
小新：我会看电视看得很累。

小新：美伢，公园有个可怜的欧巴桑，我想帮助她
美伢：小新真有爱心，就给她10块钱吧！咦！你怎么买了香肠？
小新：她就是卖香肠的嘛！

老师：小新，你怎么偷同学的橡皮擦？你做这种事，难道不为父母想一想吗？
小新：就是想过才做的。这样就不用花父母的钱了。

美伢：我以为你在写功课，竟然是在玩电动。
新：这又不能怪我。
美伢：难道要怪我？
小新：没错，谁叫你走路声音那么轻。

The Cat Melody

My sis told me about a manga regarding the life of a cat-猫的日常生活?
Hm, very imaginative...was trying to read it online, but the website couldn't be accessed for the moment. View the world from the perspective of a cat?
We had our first kitten when i was in primary school...we named her Ah Piaw...
cats do not mew, instead, they "piaw". That's how we got her name...
We used to have cat and dogs in our house. My sis took care of cat while i took care of dogs. So, she likes cats more than dogs whereas I like dogs more than cats.
I like cat as well...but some cats are not loyal, especially male cat...always escape from house to meet their wives, and wont be coming back anymore.
Once, our tom peed on my legs to mark his territory! He thought my legs were the bark of tree??The warm acidic splash still very vivid in my mind. I was getting mad that time.
Sometimes, they are arrogant and proud...never look back when u call them.
Their shits are smelly...so after doing their business, they need to cover it with a layer of earth...

Despite that, can't stop liking them.

If I were to compose a cat melody...I will let the cat hops on the keyboard...And the score of the melody will be like that...comprising of ascending and descending of cats, with varies beats.

Cute and creative design.
Seen this kind of kitten before?Yes.I did. White kitty with different colour in each eye.
Very rare!

When You Believe

两个天后级歌手合唱，绝！Mariah Carey&Whitney Houston, soundtrack from Prince of Egypt.



Lyrics | Mariah Carey lyrics - When You Believe lyrics

Britain's Got Talent 09

I like this video a lot. I watch it for several times. Even though Susan Boyle is a 47 old lady, i like to see how she impresses the judges and audiences by her voice. They all were dumbstruck by her performance. She has great talent. Watch Susan Boyle at:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

Despite her talent, she lost in the final to Diversity, a group of dancers which made me laugh and impressed as well. Awesome dancers!我只能说，赞！很幽默的街舞！
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MPcGy77Gru8
Diversity's performance during final:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FIUeRAgXDGM

And belows are the link to the contestants that i like.
One is Hollie Steel the singing ballerina; another is 6 years old Connie Talbot(BGT 07) with angel's voice that makes the judge cries.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RY-BY4YNs0o
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QWNoiVrJDsE&feature=related

In The Lift

Yesterday. I stepped into the lift, going to 7E. Whole crowd of people followed.
An uncle glanced at my name tag and talked to his relative/ friend.Basically he was talking alone whereas his friend just smiled.Maybe he thought It's not good to criticize in front of ppl.
"I told my daughter, not to be a doctor." He said loudly, intentionally, as if i never listen.
"A doctor must be dedicated. Must give full commitment. So they have NO LIFE" He looked at me.
"A doctor must treat patient holistically.Not just the disease itself."This sentence is so familiar...Uncle also studies PCM ah...
"I told my daugther not to study medicine, if you think you're going to make money by becoming a doctor, you are WRONG!"
"Are you a doctor?"He said.
"No, medical student." I replied.
"Doctors must be very dedicated. So they have no life."

These were what he said to me during the 2 minutes in the lift.
I did not say a word. Just listened, nodded my head and gave him a smile.
In some points, he's very right. Undeniable. But, why did he say that to me?
I could see that he was cynical, to me, to doctor-to-be students, to the doctors.
I wonder whether that's the words he told her daughter after her daughter failed to gain an entrance to medical school?

Once, a sister in the operation theatre also told me, she strictly prohibit her daughter to become a doctor. She even restrained her daughter to study science stream, in order to kill her any will to embark in medical field. She has seen so many young doctors tortured during their housemanships. She does not want her daughter to suffer.
I understand her purpose. And she's right.

The man was right. After i started my medical school, sometimes, sometimes I think that I don't have life. (But actually i have, i believe i still have). I don't have freedom. I am going to sink. What the helluva EXAMS...(anywhere. any course, when there is exam, there's no life)

Shouldn't the society be more encouraging to us?
Maybe i m not strong enough.
Just take it as motivation...

Langkawi之旅

This year celebrated 52th Merdeka at Langkawi and Penang...
Forget about the date on the photos as i didn't set the date properly.


Look at this beautiful sea horse.
The Underwater World fascinated me a lot. Saw many fantastic creatures in the deepest site of ocean.LIFE Is BEAUTIFUL.....当你觉得已经来到世界尽头时,应该来一趟...体会生命的奥妙...
记得卫斯理<<贝壳>>里,一个巨富应该是厌倦了人生吧, 放弃人生寻找自我, 把自己变成贝壳，比当巨富更快乐...
When i was there,I asked myself, who i am? Where am i?Why am i here?
I think when u r out there in the universe, u'll think about the same questions.
Because we r just tiny pieces of them...

This is called Chambered nautilus. The weirdest creature in the Underwater World. It looks like a combination of shell and shrimp. It's a kind of mollusc. It is mobile and can swim.The inner part of the creature. I found this on the internet.

Penguins.......

Black sand beach...with dark black sand. constitutes of only a small area of the beach...could it be oil pollution or man made?artificial sand?

人家说来langkawi一定要和老鹰合照才算到过。。。呵呵。

Us, at Queensbay,Penang.

A creative restaurant with the theme of "Toilet-Bowl" at Queensbay Mall.



Cute toilet bowl. But not practical as they are damn heavy.

There is a toothbrush on the menu!!


The SHIT ice-cream~Food served on a toilet bowl. Do u dare to challenge?

viva voce for ENT posting

Today is our viva voce for Ear, Nose, Throat posting.
I was taken by Prof Raman.
I guess it took me around 10-15 minutes to answer his questions. you can be faster if u r good.
I didn't study very well for this posting. As my other friends used their weekend to study ENTs, i went to Langkawi for fun. But with no regrets:)
The whole 2 weeks were very hectic.1 written long case and 3 written short cases to be submitted, 1 long case and 3 short cases to be presented to "Prof" or "Lecturers" or "4th year master student".
Basically i only manage to present to 3rd year master student. Don't bother whether they wanna pass my log book or not. Just tried my best to sign all the impossible task. The department is in the shortage of human resources to teach us. It was impossible for everyone to present to prof. Anyway,I learned some useful clinical skills, such as using otoscope, do anterior rhinoscopy, etc. Most of the time was just observing. Observe how syringing(wash out the ear wax) was done, how Dr sucked out the huge ear wax via suction... But my history taking was near to zero.Need to polish myself. It's not the matter of history taking, it's about the gist and how u tie up everything.

Ok, the viva voce questions were:
1. Indications of tracheostomy-upper airway obstruction, protection of bronchial tree, broncheolavage,reduces dead space, easier access to operation.blah blah...
2. Management of epistaxis
3. A 40 year old man comes to u with right hearing loss. Take the history.(everything is normal) (sudden onset, no otalgia, otorrhea, itchiness, vertigo, tinnitus, fever,no ototoxic drug taken,no family history,occupation...)
Findings of ENT all normal. What further tests u wanna do?(Rinne and Weber test).The results were bilateral Rinne positive and Weber's test lateralised to the opposite site. Interprete.(sensorineural hearing lose of right ear) What investigation?(CT scan of head).(Diagnosis: acoustic neuroma)
4. Prof Amin: Haemotympanum

Maybe not that precise. Just to give u a picture of how it was conducted.
*i learned that perforated eardrum can be regenerated~because the epithelium can proliferate. So, my perforated eardrum is healed.
And actually we don't have to use cotton bud to dig our ears as the wax will migrate out naturally.
Wax isn't dirty, they can even moisture ur ear canal and serves as antiseptic purpose~

since when i started to become---残忍?

Since when i started to become, so mean?so cruel?so cold-hearted?
I don't like to be like that.
Yes, i am cruel when something disgust me.
Yes, i am cruel when i feel being manipulated.
讨厌人家利用我.
讨厌自由被剥夺.
想用眼泪博取我的同情心?
真的很不爽! 这样只会加强我的保护层.
There is still a border, which we are prohibited to cross.
I will nurture a strong heart. To say NO.

The Kite Runner

"There is only one sin, only one. And that is THEFT. Every other sin is a variation of THEFT.

"When you kill a man, you steal a life. You steal his wife's right to a husband, rob his children of a father.
When you tell a lie, you steal someone's right to the truth.
When you cheat, you steal the right to fairness. Do you see?"

"I am so afraid."Soraya.
"Why?"
"Because I am so profoundly happy. Happiness like this is frightening. They only let you be this happy if they're preparing to take something from you." Soraya.

"Father used to say it's wrong to hurt even bad people. Because they don't know any better, and because sometimes bad people become good."Sohrab.



The Kite Runner
-Khaled Hosseini-

无聊第一篇

在宿舍闷得发慌了...要找老师...老师星期日不上班...没什么人在宿舍...电脑就是我的朋友...
在网上upload了一些照片。平常都没时间做的东西，就现在做吧。。。觉得有点废，但是Dr senior YC昨天说，要珍惜这种能够废废的日子，往后并不多时间给我们去浪费了。。。
在facebook downloaded了java的software,才发现upload照片可以很快很方便。。。

猜这黄狗在干嘛？
它看见我洗的书包挂在篱笆上，很好奇。。。一直吠我的书包！



还再吠，不死心，以为书包是外星人。。。
“外星人不要下来，气死我了！”

在一旁看的Jacky,"吵死了，懒得理你！"
哈哈。。。是不是很废？
其实是为了纪念黄狗的离去。。。

漫无目的

For the past 2 months, i was hoping that my phase IIIA exam could end as fast as possible.
At that time i just aimed to pass the exam. That's all.
Work hard for it. Sacrified my freedom. Studied like a bookworm. Eventually i passed.
What a nightmare...cant imagine how i m going to face Phase IIIB exam one and half year later.
But now, i feel like i am wandering aimlessly.
Don't want to do anything. Don't feel like doing elective. So nice if i can attend the remedial class.
Even better than doing elective.
I did not plan anything for my elective yet. No Supervisor. No topic. No approach.
Yet, i have to submit my proposal by 24 August 2009.
How...How... How....?
Have to rush everything when i m back to um on 15.
Hate this kind of feeling....

哀悼

一位老师的儿子因为一场车祸而过事。。。妈妈为了这件事伤心了好几天。
虽然对那位孩子印象模糊了。。。但有见过。。。
替老师感到难过。。。
孩子是无辜的，无端端成了鲁莽驾驶的受害者。
只因为司机驾驶一百四十的时速，只因为他坐在门旁，睡觉。。。车子翻了，门开了，腾空而飞出去。。。撞倒了头，从此再也不回来了。不能想象，如果这是我亲人，我能否接受？
想象自己只是要去考undang-undang,坐上van,啊，路途很遥远，睡一个觉吧。。。然后车子剧烈摇晃，看见自己飞了出来。还不知发生了什么事情，就撞了下去。头很痛。事情发生太快了。什么都不知道。甚至不知道自己死了。。。
其实不管是谁，听了也心酸，毕竟最近吉赖发生了太多不幸的事情。。 。
不久前三个年轻人也因为一场车祸而过世。。。
看来往后妈妈又多了一个阴影，不放心我们几个兄弟姐妹驾驶了。
之前忙着应付考试，没时间向太多，如今想想，那孩子的突然离开，很伤心、很可惜。。。
为什么他的生命那么短暂？上天是不是很不公平？
借给你一个幸福，又突然被没收回的感觉，可以很痛。
一直都有在心里替他哀悼。
希望他在另一个天国过得很好。没痛楚。没烦恼。
天国存在吗？
我宁可相信它是存在的。

明天

明天要加油！！豁出去了！！下午一点零五分。。。一小时四十分钟后。。我得以解脱！希望顺顺利利。。。

星期三的这一刻

星期三的这一刻，我会是什么心情呢？
是开心？开心，一个月多的痛苦终于结束了。。
是失落？想哭？想大声呐喊？后悔不够用功？因为不会Formulate diagnosis...答不到老师的问题。。。
考试怎么那么折磨人呢。。。
到底会拿什么case?怎样的病人？最重要是决定你生死的老师或教授，是谁？
明天是考long case的第一天。。。如果我明天就去考，等于送死。。。
星期三下午1点之前，我就要具备所有一年学过读过的东西。。。
发现自己还有很多东西没cover,那焦虑的心情 、心跳、胡思乱想。。。很疲惫。。。
希望星期三的这一刻。。。我会没事。。。

Capricorn's

一个批评摩羯座的文章。。。好笑，不过一些话一击就中弱点。
【魔羯座12/22-1/20：無趣到死的木頭人】

當一個魔羯座的人真的蠻可憐的，不只身邊的人會因為覺得你太無趣而離開你，連你自己都受不了再繼續過這種了無新意的生活，卻無能為力改變這種現狀，真是悲哀到家!
因 為永遠不知變通，所以只好墨守成規，畫地自限，但可憐的是，偏偏魔羯又是世上野心最大的人，所以常常有一種為什麼別人沒有視我為最重要人物的不平之鳴，因 為自己沒種，只敢想卻又不敢表達出來，所以長期壓抑下來的結果，不是得了憂鬱症，就是變成變態狂！別傻了！沒人會同情你的，因為你這種死悲觀，到老也改不 了，所以誰也懶得理你！
永遠活在過去的成就跟陰影當中，以苦為樂，常看到一個魔羯不是在說'想當初我過得多苦，哪有像你現在過得那麼好命'；就是在說'想 當初，我經過了多少努力，如何功成名就。那種把自身的痛苦誇大並保存的能力無人能敵，而且越老越嚴重！悶也就算了，還老愛教訓人，教訓人也就算了，還毫無 創意，永遠說著同樣的訓辭，三百條原則壓死自己還不夠，還要壓死那些你身邊的親朋好友，拜託，人生苦短，你要自己沉沦在痛苦中真的隨便你，但請不要用你自 己訂出來的教條，去要求無辜的人。
一個太無趣的人，怎麼可能有愛情？(是吗？）所以，等下輩子吧！看看到老，有沒有辦法被你等到那種心地善良得要死的好人，願意跟你在一起，而且是只為了你的財產！當然，你還是得感激他，因為畢竟為了錢得忍受一生無聊也是不容易的事！

哈哈。。哈哈。。。T_T

Excellent Thought

These are some thoughts generated by world renowned ppl...a friend forwarded to me. I think they are quite meaningful and can serve as a reminder as well as motivations, inspiration...

If you born poor, it's not your mistake;
But if you die poor, it's your mistake.----Bill Gates

In a day, when you don't come across any problems,
You can be sure that you are traveling in a wrong path.---Swami Vivekananda

3 sentences for getting success:
Know more than other, do more than other, expect less than other.---William Shakespeare

If you win, you need not explain.
But if you loss you should not be there to explain.---Adolf Hitler

Don't compare yourself with anyone in this world.
If you do so, you are insulting yourself.--Alen Strike

If we cannot love the person whom we see,
How can we love God, whom we cannot see?---Mother Teresa

I will not say i failed 1000 times,
I will say that I discovered 1000 ways that can cause failure.---Thomas Edison

Believing everybody is Dangerous,
Believing nobody is Very Dangerous. --- Abraham Lincoln

If someone feels that they had never made a mistake in their life,
Then it means they had never tried a new thing in their life.-Albert Einstein

Winning doesn't always mean being first,
Winning means you're doing better than you've done before.---Bonnie Blair

my ears!

I have a perforated right tympanic membrane(耳膜）。I accidentally knew it on Monday when Doctor Saira was teaching WC to look into my ears using otoscope...and the Weber's test seemed to be positive.maybe it's due to some ear infection secondary to dog's tick that entered my ears when i was small...maybe it was the infection few months back which was responsible.i went to see doctor at HTAR that time and Dr Tee said my tympanic membrane was perforated but i wasn't convinced and ignore it. Now i knew i have to take care of my ears properly.sob sob...

Hamsap patient or innocent patient?

ANGRY!!most of the time,we'll meet nice patient in the ward. This afternoon was an exception.
I accompanied SL to clerk a psychiatric patient which had attempted a suicide. I am not going to tell the story of how this patient attempted the suicide, but it is about the patient next to our patient who had committed the "crime".
Since we have to built good rapport with the patient, we need a good eye contact. So i slightly leaned forward to talk to the patient while SL sat on the patient's bed.
When i was talking and listening attentively, i felt a sudden struck on my buttock.
It was round and hard+firm, shape was like a fist, measuring a man's fist. It landed on my left buttock purposely and retreated immediately.
My intuition and instinct being a female commanded me to turn and i stared at the man behind me.
He was looking at me and asked:"Why? what happened?"
I stared at the patient. My heart was burning furiously. I wanted to shout FuXk YOU but my conscience halted me to do so. I replied:"your HAND!"and gazed straight into his eyes.
He said:"sorry, saya baru bangun dari tidur.TERKEJUT. saya tak boleh tidur nyenyak dalam hospital.Tangan terkeluar".
I was quite unsure whether he's real or talking big fat lie. But i did not want to misjudge a patient. what if he's telling me the truth?Moreover, it is not good for me to shout at him in front of my patient. and i was busy, rushing to finish the clerking before night falls.
So i persuaded myself to believe that he was innocent and turned to our patient and continued our clerking.
I changed my position and talked to our patient's mother while SL clerked our patient.
I asked the lady whether she saw the monster's act but she denied.
I did notice the monster look at my direction few times and i had no fear in returning back my stares.
The monster friends came to visit him. After around 1o minutes, the monster called me again. I went to his bed and again he asked:"what happened just now?"I saw NOT a bit sincere in his eyes.
I replied in a loud and higher tone:"You PUKUL PUNGGUNG saya dengan tangan awak. I was very angry! But if you didn't do it purposely, it is ok. But if u did it purposely, i will sue you and curse you not to reach paradise."of course, the last sentence was not blurted out.
If he was innocent, then my words didnt hurt him. if he really did it, perhaps he'll feel ashamed.
I think my voice was loud enough to reverberate to few beds around me.
He answered me the same thing again:saya terkejut dari tidur.
I couldn't do anything since i had no proof.

This is a situation commonly faced by female. many of my female friends encountered the same thing. but they usually dont know how to act.what to do?majority of the females are unsure whether they are molested or not since they dont have eyes at the back. Body to body contacts are normal in our daily life. sometimes i do accidentally hit someone's breast or buttock and vice versa. But why we dont care that much? because they dont do it with a bad intention, whereas the MONSTERs do.
If this happen to you,confront it bravely and don't keep silent. stare back at them and if they continue to touch your body part, shout for help.

What a busy posting

Struggling to finish case summary...while listening to favourite song "Crucify My Love" by x-japan...never feel bored of this song...

Haven't study much for obstetric and gynaecology posting until now.Honestly, only touched about history and physical examination. At the same time have to complete the 1st case summary by end of 1st week.then have to prepare one new case for Dr F,the tyrant, by tomorrow night. I wonder what will be on Monday morning.Many good appraisal for him.('-_-)

On 8 of April, there will be Environmental Health exam.Hell.Need to study about type of wells, processing clean water...waste disposal....blah blah....
I miss surgery posting now. So relaxing and there's ample of time. to sleep. to study. whatever.

Anyway, anticipate the moment i witness spontaneous vagina delivery next week!

stupid thief

my new imported biscuits was stolen by stupid thief.a big box just vanished like that....so frustrated yet so funny.

My room was BROKEN in!!

This is a letter I intend to write to the authority. I lost an external hard disc and MP4. ANGRY!!It is not the money or value that cause my heartache, but it is the matter of the things i stored inside...pictures, movies, music, my sister's animation, pictures?!!
If you have anything to add, fry, condemn.... do let me know.thanks.i think i m quite gentle from the way i wrote.I really want to say:what the heck!

To whom it may concern,

Complaint About Break-in at Student’s Hostel at Hospital Tuanku Ampuan Rahimah

I, the above named, would like to lodge a complaint about the recent break-in at our hostel, which occurred at room XXXX, on 13 March 2009, Friday, 1.30pm.

2. For your information, the hostel was unoccupied for 2 weeks as we, as Phase IIIA medical students of University Malaya, had to complete our Community Resident Project starting from 02.03.09-15.03.09 at different districts in Pahang. On 13 March 2009, I came back from Pahang to my hostel. I was shocked to find that my door was not locked. When I opened the door, I found out that the grills at the windows of my room were prised open!

3. Initially, what crossed my mind was some workers entered my room to do some repairs. Who else could have the duplicate keys to our rooms other than the management? I am not blaming the management for the loss, it is merely my assumption that someone has somehow manage to duplicate the key. I once heard from the security guard the hostel door was difficult to break in as the door lock was secure. To my shock, when I opened my drawer, I found that my external hard disc and MP4 worth RM200 and RM100 respectively were disappeared!

4. My friend’s room, room YYYY was broken into in the same manner. She lost a printer which was locked inside the cupboard; whereas my roommate lost a handphone worth RM1000 which was locked inside the drawer, a charger and a branded pen. The total lost was estimated to be RM2000.00.

5. We took for granted that leaving our valuable stuff inside the room while flocking out for 2 weeks is an unwise action. But, how could we stay here, in Asrama Perubatan Hospital Tuanku Ampuan Rahimah peacefully when our safety is so threatened and endangered. This statement is based on:
(i) The security level of this hostel is lax and could easily be breached.
(ii) Intruders are able to move freely and linger inside our room while we are not around
(iii) The intruders are so brilliant, even things we locked safely in the drawers and
Cupboards with padlocks were successfully broken into.

6. Without speedy action, we cannot sleep peacefully every night thinking of the burglary. What if someone enters our rooms at night? I would not dare think of the terrible consequences of that happening. I would suggest that the security of the hostel and its surrounding be beefed-up so that future hostelites would not become victims. In addition, security checks should be done more often and the locking system should be reviewed.

Thank you.

埋怨？

看别人不顺眼，是自己修养不够。
生气，是拿别人的过错来惩罚自己。这个道理，小学时老师就教过了。所以，能够避免，我都不会让自己生气。
要批评别人时，先想想自己是否完美无缺？
人的眼睛长在前面，只看到别人的缺点，丝毫看不到自己的缺点。
莫说他人短与长，说来说去自遭殃。若能闭口深藏毒舌，便是修复品行第一方。

经常怪罪别人，是不是因为自己心胸狭窄呢？
面具，谁不曾戴过？只是，不要忘了把它摘下来。久了，你就会跟他融为一体。
世界是美好，或是邪恶， 是靠自己如何去看待。
有句话说得好，透过锁匙洞去看这个世界，这个世界时渺小的！
别埋怨别人让你愤世嫉俗，是你自己把快乐的钥匙遗失了。
与其责怪，倒不如换个角度看待某件事？
以为自己用言语能够在别人背后刺人，其实如果他人品德高尚，根本不知道你发了疯。

So you think you have the worst job ever?
Think about others....

yeen

Recently when I am bored or alone, I will think of you.
The day you left, we cried. I once thought crying is cowardice.
I don't used to cry in front of ppl. I though I were tough enough.
But when I grew up I realized, doesn't cry doesn't mean that you are brave, strong or you can bear it. So, why not let the emotion flows naturally?
You are leaving our lives for few years, just like I left your life few years ago.
Although we can’t always be together, but I will cherish the memories we have.
Time will fly, and you will be back, transformed.
If I were to build a house (if, if I am financially stable and independent,haha), the architect must be you.

Being an architect was one of my childhood dreams, one of my ambitions. This idea nurtured because when we were young, there were bungalows built nearby our house. I loved to go to the construction sites. I jumped over the bricks; sands, played hide and seek, and imagined I was the owner of the house. I imagined of how to decorate the house, which room would be mine, what kind of furniture I would buy, how to paint the wall, where to put the piano, and importantly, to create a comfortable private library where I can hang out whenever I like without being disturbed.
Of course, finally I didn’t choose this field. Because I am afraid my creativities will diminish gradually and not long lasting. I don’t have confident.

As you know, I wanted to be a veterinary too. Because we’ve seen enough how the animals suffered from illness, how people ignored animals’ rights and how we sensed the impending doom whenever a cat or dog is sick. What a gloomy day. At that time, I thought of rescuing them will be the greatest job. Do you know? I dropped more tears for animals rather than human when I was small. Not many people understand. This feeling waxed and waned after years.

Eventually I choose my field because I think it will make papa and mama happier. Of course, I like this field too. The deeper I study, the more it answers my childhood queries about health and human body. Example, I realized my neck will swell up when I got an infection but I wasn’t know what was that until I learnt it is called lymph node. I wonder why I kick automatically when doctor hit my knee with a hammer until I know that it is a stretch reflex.

Just want to say, I am proud that you’ve select what is suitable for yourself. You do what you like in your own way, and not influenced by others. 你有性格，但有时有些冷漠。冷漠有时候并不是无情，只是一种避免被伤害的面具。You are individualistic, but sometimes you need to tolerate people as well...I can be individualistic sometimes. But i choose not to. I choose to fit into the society. Because if i were, mama will get headache...haha...

Sorry we don't manage to sing karaoke together before you left. I am looking forward November.:P

The Alchemist

Half year ago, i read this story book.And found out some memorable quotes which i like:

"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."

"I am like everyone else-- I see the world in terms of what I would like to see happen,not what actually does."

"I am afraid if my dream is realized, i have no reason to go on living.I am afraid it will be a disappointment, so I prefer just to dream about it."

"You must always know what it is that you want."

"LOVE never keeps a Man from pursuing his Personal Legend. If he abandoned that pursuits, it's because it wasn't true love- the love that speaks the Language of the World."

"In persuing your dream, you are afraid of losing everything you've won."

"My heart is afraid that it will have to suffer,"the boy said."Tell your heart the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself."

"Most people see the world as threatening place, and, because they do, the world turns our, indeed, to be a threatening place."

"Before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in additions in realizing our dreams, master the lessons we've learned as we move towards that dream.Tha's the point at which most people give up."

"The darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn."

"When you possess great treasures within you, and try to tell others of them, seldom are you believed."

"Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice surely will happen a third time."

"To realize one's destiny is a person's only obligation."

--The Alchemist--

《 牧羊少年奇幻之旅》

By Paulo Coelho

Dysmenorrhoea=Period Pain

Shit...suffer from dysmenorrhoea(period pain) in the midnight.
It woke me up. I fought with it.
I refrain myself from taking pain killer.
Ppl said it's not good to take pain killer.
The shooting, crampy colicky pain is still there.
I could not sleep.
I kept moving.
I kept turning.
I could not sleep.
I felt hot.
I hit the pillow.
I pressed the pain.
I went to toilet.
Felt like abdominal cramping.
Felt like wanted to pass motion but actually not.
It's a deception.
The prevalence of dysmenorrhoea among reproductive-aged woman is 45-90%.
It's a leading cause of absenteeism among ladies in their workplace/school.
So i am not considered unlucky, am i?
One and half hour has passed.
I surrendered.
I took the PCM.

Sometimes. i do suffer from PMS-premenstrual syndrome.
PMS, is a group of symptoms that start one to two weeks before your period.
Most women have at least some symptoms of PMS, and the symptoms go away after their periods start.

Common PMS symptoms include

• Breast swelling and tenderness-yes.good. add some cup.kidding.
• Acne-yes, but mild
  
• Anxiety-yes,causes difficulty in sleeping
• Insomnia-what i am doing now?it's nearly 5 am.
  
• Fatigue-Yes
  
• Bloating and weight gain-weight gain yes
  
• Pain - headache or joint pain-No!
• Food cravings-Yes.Sweet stuffs.Biscuits.Chocolate.Unhealthy junk food.
  
• Irritability, mood swings-Yes.Felt very down 2 days ago. I am sorry to my room mate. Thanks because u try to cheer me up. I am sorry.
  
• Crying spells-Yes.2 days ago.Crying in the bathroom for no reasons. Crying during sleep. Maybe i was thinking of you my dear.
  
• Depression-Nop. that is too serious.
  

In addition, I will have diarrhoea. the symptoms vary from ppl to ppl.
For your information, the risk factors for period pain include :

• High caffeine intake-Yes. I take coffee to combat sleepiness. But will not exceed one cup per day and i dont take rich coffee.I will sleep a lot if I don't take.I cant stand if i dont sleep 8 hours per day. I know it is not good. So i will try to sleep more afterwards.
• Stress may precipitate condition-Last week was exam.Yes.
  
• Increasing age- I am getting OLDER.....
  
• History of depression-No!
• Tobacco use-No.
• Family history-Mom and sis dont have...Yeen,do u have?
  
• Dietary factor-low levels of Magnesium, Manganese, Vitamin E.-No, i took multivitamin from Amway. My body reservoir is enough for years.

My mother advised me to take Evening Primrose Oil(EPO).
I've been using it since secondary school.
It is used traditionally to cure period pain and breast tenderness.

It is very rich in polyunsaturated omega-6 fatty acids, which are necessary fatty acids that body needs to complete numerous functions including insulin absorption, regulating the heart, and regulating mood. The body does not manufacture these fatty acids on its own, so they have to be taken as food or food supplements. EPO has linoleic acid and gamma-linolenic acid (“GLA”). Both of these acids are very important and very beneficial to general well-being. Linoleic acid is thought to help the body make use of insulin, regulate weight, and prevent cancer and heart disease. GLA is thought to reduce swelling or irritation. Because of the high GLA content of evening primrose, it is recommended to help treat inflammatory ailments like asthma or arthritis. Many of the benefits of evening primrose have yet to be thoroughly studied. It has been known to improve acne, eczema, psoriasis, and other skin problems.

I took this article from a website, haha. Because i dont really know what other benefits it could give.I know that it is high in GLA and linoleneic acid because it is writtem on the bottle.
For your info,u need to take at least few months(3) to see its effect.
Side effect?Headache, indigestion, nausea,soft stools. Which I dont have, but i do believe things come in good and bad.

Hm, I hope I can sleep soundly after blogging.

Slumdog Millionaire

I feel boring now...
Watched Slumdog Millionaire last evening.
Quite a special story. It was about a poor and uneducated 18 year old boy, was a contestant of "Who Wants to Be A Millionaire".
He was one questions away from becoming the winner.
But he was suspected in cheating and was arrested and interrogated.
He explained how he got the answers. The answers were in his life history....
A mixture of money and love.
Dev Patel is cute!
Hope they win in Oscar.
Cant stop thinking how he plunged into the shit pool just to get his idol's signature....

End of 2nd Medicine Posting

3rd posting was over. Half year has gone. I am now having a break.
I got a thyroid patient this time. Luckily I've seen this patient the day before my exam. HEhe.
If not i will never know what was happening...
The question Dr Q threw to me was,"I want you to look at this young lady's neck and proceed." Huh...what's wrong with her neck? There was no goitre or any prominent swelling.
Her neck was beautiful and normal...but she was looking at me with a "staring gaze".
Ok, showmanship is vital. I pretended that i don't know her and proceeded.
My hands were trembling when i was doing a lid lag test and examine for ophthalmoplegia (eye weakness), as if i was the one who suffers from hyperthyroidism....
Initially Dr Q wanted to bring me to a psoriatic (niu2 pi2 xian3) patient.
Huhu...luckily the patient was not around...

People fight more bravely after every war...Or at least constantly.
But my energy seems to wear off...how should i recharge?
I need some inspiration. Hmm...gotta find the inspiration.

CRP(is an abbrevation of??) is coming next week. Not looking forward at all. No idea.
Will not have any lectures or classes for this one month. Heard that this year CRP at Pahang.
Good..near to Kelantan...

Devastated

This car...was ruined in a car accident. Was shocked to see this at first.
Fortunately only minor injuries for the driver.
Heard that someone's has put these photo's on a forum without the consent from the owner.
Confidentiality is the main concern here.
Well, it's the disadvantage (or advantage?) of the modern technology.
Bad news spread faster than anything else.
Stop condemning and accuse anyone without knowing the real situation.
Anyhow, safety is paramount.

22 years old...

This is my 22nd birthday cake. Wasn't at home to celebrate birthday for almost 3 years...I was actually quite surprised that dad will order a cake for me, because he never do that previously. This is the first birthday cake i receive from him^-^It's TIRAMISU~~dad likes it. Of course i love it. Even Jacky likes it~~:P No grand celebration. No Presents. The well-being of my family, and birthday song by them are my greatest presents...

Thank you mom,dad,
Sister and brother.