Sunday, 5 June 2016

Life is short and we cannot afford to always wait.

Thursday, 12 March 2015


Tuesday, 13 January 2015


My grieving started when i got to know you have cancer...
And basically, the mourning process set in...
Because i know it is the deadliest cancer.And no one can stop it...not even chemo, or radiotherapy.
When you left 6 months later, I kept thinking...
The memories seem frozen, in a time...where you were still alive.
When i tried my best to remember,the last memories you that you can give.

"Becareful when you are driving.Dont go back so late!"
This was your last advice to me, which was so loud, and till now still reverberates in my mind.

Even though i know in the past you met some failure in life.
No one is forever successful and who doesnt even have the lowest point of life?
But you never fail treating me like a daughter.

When i saw that in your diary, you have a plan for this coming chinese new year...which is to invite us, friends and relative to have new year meal.You even listed it out one by one, and what to eat, where to order the food..I just cant hold it anymore...
You were positive...
You said your coughing was due to eating too much of pickles...
You will gain back your strength after you have appetite to eat...
I bought multivitamins and chicken essence for you, I dont much you can have
Before i went to Japan, you asked me to buy you a light colour polo shirt...
But it was winter in Japan...i couldnt find any thing that match it...

You used to give me pocket money when I studied...
I used to study on your writing table.
And woke up at 4.30am to find you sitting in living room alone huffing and puffing...
You often brought me to makan and send me to hostels...

Was i regret for not asking you to stop smoking? may spare you another 10 years?
No... I cant beat the ageing..and genetics that contribute to that.
At the last moment, it doesn't make any long as you are happy.

You are always proud of us...
And i havent got time to pay you back.

I hope there is no suffering.
At the place you now call home.

"We are just visitors to this time, this place.
We are just passing though.
Our purpose here is to observe, to learn, to grow, to love...
And then we return home."The Australian Aborigines.

Friday, 28 November 2014

Occult Malignan-me...?

Most of the people find me approachable and nice...
Lately finding myself more and more difficult to contain my anger.
If I am too nice, people kind of take advantages on me.
I need to be calm. I think I need to learn some anger management skills...
Something is missing.

Tuesday, 25 November 2014


Cooked a considerably 'sumptious' dinner for myself before heading to study...surprisingly cannot finish...full!
Pastas are not my favourite,but i guess people surrounding me are influencing me...believe or not.This is the first time cooking pasta in solo.

Monday, 22 September 2014




从Pinot Noir, Merlot, Cabernet Sauvignon,到Syraz.
从味蕾感觉被刺激虐待到体会其中的tannin, acidity, sweet, fruity, oak...




现在exploring white whine...好爱Moscato...!

我开始幻想如果我有一个家,除了咖啡机。。。我要有个小小的wine cellar。。。


Before i go to sleep, cheers!

Sunday, 22 June 2014