I am Back.

Yeah!after spending one month of "isolation" at Banting Hospital, I am back!
If you longed for solitude and tranquil life, Banting is a good place.

Quite anxious for next posting, Obstetric posting where we are required to conduct 5 deliveries and do episiotomy repair...what a bloody job..

Read "The Best Laid Plan" by Sidney Sheldon which i borrowed from library of Blok Kuliah. It is recommended by JQ.
And another book entitled " Falling Leaves" by Adeline Yen Mah.

"The Best Laid Plan" is quite a good fiction book if u dont like too many emotional descrtiptions. Dialogues are plenty. It's more like reading a drama then a book. If u wanna try simple fiction, fast pace, without bewildered by bombastic words, this book is a pleasure.

"Falling Leaves" is sista's book. It's an autobiography of Adeline Yen Mah, an unwanted Chinese daughter of a wealthy family. I salute this author for her superb English(maybe my level is too low for her book), her determination to survive a lonely childhood, and her forgiveness towards her families in everything including betrayal of trust.

Few things i derived from this books: Indulgence of beauty of a father, who became irrational and ignorant to the author. most of the time when ppl are trying hard to content their children physically and materially, what really lack of is emotional necessity.

I tend to like books with emotional involvement, books where i can derive a lot of thoughts.
Maybe most of the time i tend to be emotionally detached from reality...
Which if u care much, u hurt yourself much...
I wish I could shed tears whenever I feel sad. I wish I could be fragile.
It become nebulous since when I picked up this camourflage?
Maybe this is what I am trying to search in those books, the long lost emotion for certain things.

无聊假期>书

期盼已久的“假期“终于来了。。。
其实并没假放，是自己安排时间“腾出”一个月的假期罢了。
想想别人用elective时间去学习，本人却跑回家，名誉上是写report,事实上根本没那心情呀~~偷懒一会儿啊~~~promise will be hardworking when go back~haha
无所事事接近两个礼拜了，其实觉得挺无聊的。。。
人生好像很多目标却又实行不了。
带了几本书、零零散散的notes和raw datas 回来，下场是被我丢在行李箱冻结，翻也没翻过。。。
这假期应该是最后一个可以过得那样惬意的假期了。。。第四年明年二月就结束了。
大五不能浪费时间，一定要好好拼了。

我放任自己睡觉。一天睡足9、10个小时。你可以说我懒，但我回宿舍就没得这样睡。
我放任自己玩facebook的game。这样我玩闷了，回宿舍就没那么想玩了。
我放任自己看课外书。因为平常课业书那么多，不能心平气和的看课外书，不爽快。
其实家里的书海（书海夸张了些，应该只是一个小湖）是我探索不完的宝藏。
我没有办法看完这些书，所以每次回家，我会挑1,2本故事书来读。
这一次挑了哥哥的Rose Madder,by Stephen King.
Stephen King 的故事一直是我想看，但没勇气也没毅力看的。
希望我能够看完它。上次听米雪说关于马拉松赛跑杀人事件还挺有趣的。

这次妹妹回国，碰巧遇上我们喜爱逛的--书展~~这是第一次到the mines观光《书香书展》。由于沙登离um一段距离，所以之前都没机会去。多谢表妹阿清载我们姐弟妹去~~
之前去过KLCC《海外华文书展》，很大型。第一次站在浩瀚书海中，会有不知所措的感觉，不懂要买什么。而且人一多就有窒息的感觉。。。

《书香书展》较小型，华文书居多，但也有MPH摊子。MPH的书随时都买到，所以只买中文书

看到《大象的眼泪》一书（Water For Elephants， by Sara Gruen) ,关于一个即将毕业医学生, 父母双亡后跳上一列马戏团火车，驶向一段不同方向的人生。首先引我注目是因为题目以动物为主，其次因为那是07年畅销书，也是名嘴Oprah推荐一书。
但那最后一本书一角被折烂了，所以不买。如果完整一定买！而且本身比较喜欢原版，不太喜欢翻译版的。

最后只买了四本：
1。解读张爱玲一百句。刘峰杰。喜欢看这样的书。别人解读的，自己就不需花太多时间去了解张爱玲这个文学才女。认识张爱玲就只限《色。戒》，要看她的作品也不知何处开始。其实是被书中的几句话吸引：“生命是一袭华美的袍，爬满了蚤子。”“父母大都不懂得子女，而子女往往看穿父母的为人。”
2。藏在故事后面的心灵。刘庸。一直都喜欢他的书。此书引用短篇寓言故事，适合睡前看一篇
3。澳洲海外情。蔡澜。澳洲---妹妹读书的地方，有一天我会去征服你~~对蔡澜的认识是从报子专栏，印象深刻是他这个美食家竟组队到彭亨深山吃猫三王榴莲！还有他是倪匡的老友鬼鬼。
4。你总有爱我的一天。张小娴。书名很土，但是她的书迷。这本书在火车上看，没一小时半就看完了。。。没以前故事惊心动魄。只喜欢她的长篇小说，不喜欢散文。其中《雪地里的天使蛋卷》，《情人无泪》，Channel A系列和《月夜宝石》是我较喜欢的。期待《月夜宝石2》赶快出版~~~~

妹妹买尼采Nietzshe文集，弟弟买鬼故事书。

妹妹送给我一本很好笑的“书”。。。好笑之处，因为它很迷你~~~

那华文PMR书是一般大小的书，第二本是我们常带在身边类似pocket dictionary的迷你书。再来就是妹妹送的“In Troubled Times".她说读我们这一科的很容易depressed,所以需要这附有鼓励词句的书来陪伴我。。。谢谢啦。。。我还真喜欢里面的quotes呢~>-<

too small to read right....well, it says:"Those who don't know how to weep with their whole heart, don't know how to laugh either."好贴切啊~~

The Memory Keeper's Daughter

Just finished reading The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards.
It's story about a Dr giving away his Down Syndrome daughter, which was born soon after her healthy twin brother and how this complicates his life, his wife's and his son's as well.
The front part was quite dragging...
And then How could the Dr leave the secret without telling his wife and son, and died of heart attact?这叫报应。。。
the middle of the story is rich of emotional and psychological details...but ended quite abruptly without much of it...
Simply my own opinion,overall quite touching la...
What's next?

The Kite Runner

"There is only one sin, only one. And that is THEFT. Every other sin is a variation of THEFT.

"When you kill a man, you steal a life. You steal his wife's right to a husband, rob his children of a father.
When you tell a lie, you steal someone's right to the truth.
When you cheat, you steal the right to fairness. Do you see?"

"I am so afraid."Soraya.
"Why?"
"Because I am so profoundly happy. Happiness like this is frightening. They only let you be this happy if they're preparing to take something from you." Soraya.

"Father used to say it's wrong to hurt even bad people. Because they don't know any better, and because sometimes bad people become good."Sohrab.



The Kite Runner
-Khaled Hosseini-

The Alchemist

Half year ago, i read this story book.And found out some memorable quotes which i like:

"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."

"I am like everyone else-- I see the world in terms of what I would like to see happen,not what actually does."

"I am afraid if my dream is realized, i have no reason to go on living.I am afraid it will be a disappointment, so I prefer just to dream about it."

"You must always know what it is that you want."

"LOVE never keeps a Man from pursuing his Personal Legend. If he abandoned that pursuits, it's because it wasn't true love- the love that speaks the Language of the World."

"In persuing your dream, you are afraid of losing everything you've won."

"My heart is afraid that it will have to suffer,"the boy said."Tell your heart the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself."

"Most people see the world as threatening place, and, because they do, the world turns our, indeed, to be a threatening place."

"Before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in additions in realizing our dreams, master the lessons we've learned as we move towards that dream.Tha's the point at which most people give up."

"The darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn."

"When you possess great treasures within you, and try to tell others of them, seldom are you believed."

"Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice surely will happen a third time."

"To realize one's destiny is a person's only obligation."

--The Alchemist--

《 牧羊少年奇幻之旅》

By Paulo Coelho

For One More Day

Bought this book one year ago at KLCC bookfest. I like to keep books. I dont know when i am going to read it. Until i find a suitable mood to read it.It was a second book i read from Mitch Albom.Didn't feel like studying Talley or NK Chew,i grabbed this book from my bookshelf and gave it a quick read.
If i were given one more day to be spent with, who will be that person and what kind of situation will that be?
I don't know, as i haven't loss my love one yet.
But losing our parents or love one is surely devastating.
We usually don't appreciate what we have currently, and we realize it only after we lose it.
I like this:
"Mom"-- they take it from you FOREVER when they died.
U don't have chance to call it again.
When my grandfather died few years ago, i remembered my mother told me, she wished that my grandfather's soul could appear on the 7th day of his death.She was not afraid of seeing ghost, instead she was looking forward eagerly.
And of course, ghost did not appear eventually.
But what i learnt was, u'll feel sorry for not fulfilling someone's wishes.u'll feel guilty for not treating someone good when they are still alive.
Death is unpredictable.
Our parents and loved one should be CHERISHED.
Don't yell and grieve over them in their funeral.