Saturday, 21 November 2009

Time for Miracle

Fall in love with this "2012" soundtrack by Adam Lambert,runner up of american idol season 8~~

Wednesday, 18 November 2009

A Little Pain

video
A Little pain, soundtrack from "Nana" by Olivia Lufkin- an American-Japanese mixed blood singer...One of my favourite songs in my playlist~This is the 1st time i am looking at its translation~

Travel to the moon
You're asleep, as you work out your dreams
There's no one here
While the light of the stars toys with me

In order to become strong
I have to remember how to smile
If we're together, I can do it

* Realize that...
I'm here waiting for you
Even if the future is different from now
I'm here waiting for you
I keep on shouting
I'm sure all I have to do
Is pull in the thread that connects our hearts
So the person I was back then
Would open her eyes
No need to cry

Travel in silence
I can reach you if I stretch out my hands
The only memory I have of you
Is so far away

I can hear your voice
If I close my eyes
Even a little pain
Would be nice

Look at me
I'm here waiting for you
Even if you get lost, blown away by the wind
I'm here waiting for you
I look up at the sky
I was protecting my heart
With outstretched hands
Until the person you were back then
Looked back
No need to cry

(Feel something, feel nothing
Listen closely, listen closely)
Wide open ears
Disarm the dream tickler
In the constant moment
(You will find me where it's quiet
Listen closely, listen closely)
Let the blood flow
Through all the spaces
Of the universe

Monday, 16 November 2009

诱惑

又再一次败给你。。。从不知道如何去拒绝你。。。
每次听闻你的消息,都怦然心跳,不知该远离你?还是靠近你?
再这样下去,我快要认不得自己了。
每次被你操控着。。。想拒绝,却总在最后一分钟卸下防备。
我的身心有如被绳子牵着,悠悠地向你走去。
投入你的怀抱。。。
我三、五分钟就解决了你。。。
我恨死了我自己。。。
坠入你的诱惑之中。。。
执迷不悟。。。




















kl gate burger,你这个美食混蛋。

Saturday, 14 November 2009

狂欢~

已经没心情去理data了。。。今天没有我要的case。。。听护士说早上到傍晚也只有4个case。。。
没朋友陪伴多么无聊啊~~多数的朋友周末都不去A&E哒。。。
想回家了。。。想家人。
想看看家里的傻狗长大了吗?家里有水果吃吗?房间的窗口装修得怎样?要看什么书?

小狗不知叫什么名呢?

傻狗爱咬人,连按摩脚的棍也不放过。。。爸说它偷偷咬走晒着的衣服~

傻狗虽然不漂亮,没有高贵的血统,但它绝对是精力充沛的~~
不好意思,孤单是一个人的狂欢~~

Friday, 13 November 2009

下雨天

最近天气怎么了。。。
每每到了下午四、五点就开始下雨。。。
原本约好要带朋友去夜市走走,怎知时间一到就下起倾盆大雨~~超失望的!
原本要再这个月展开跑步减肥计划。。。哈哈,有个借口可以偷懒了。。。
一是傍晚一到就下雨,二是在A&E跑不开。。。
elective目标是三十个subjects,但符合条件的病人平均一天只出现一个。。。
现在只有十二个subjects。。。离目标还有十八个。。。哎
今天为了配合白裤子穿了黑色高跟鞋,结果站了5、6个小时就开始疼痛了。。。
后脚还起了一个泡~
明天绝不穿了。虽然有时爱美但还要命啊~~
真是影响学习心情啊~~巴不得回房换鞋子 。
还是平底鞋好。

Saturday, 7 November 2009

A&E

星期五的A&E很精彩。。。
两个CPR(人工呼吸)。。。
一个motor vehicle accident...做bilateral prophylactic chest drain...结果病人失血超过七百毫升被送进OT (operation theatre)
一个myasthenia gravis 病人
还有身上各处淋巴球肿大,脾脏肝脏皆肿大,却拒绝西医治疗法,服用中药, 最终因为呼吸困难而进来的病人。

第一个CPR我错过了,病人死了,家属有整整15-20人进进出出,有人哭有人念经,气氛凝重。
第二个CPR有机会凑上一脚,chest compression轮流做了三十分钟(很多人轮流做,基本上我按了30秒就觉得累)。最后病人也没被救活。。。听说病人是孤儿。没有一把鼻涕一把眼泪的家属,只有一个阿伯,应该是孤儿院代表。
总会见到极端的例子。一种是有家人的病人,另一种则相反。
有家人关心的,很幸福。看过一个盲了的MAKCIK,儿子无微不至在旁照顾,把身边发生的事情一一一告诉她,做她的双眼。
没家人,很孤单。身边的人皆撇清关系,没人想留下照顾一个和自己没血缘关系的人。
那孤儿的丧礼很凄凉吧。没有嚎啕大哭的家属。

哭,是因为对死者有了感情。
哭,是因为舍不得。
哭,是因为死者已在心中烙下痕迹。
人生于这个世界上不是要被记得吗?
如果死了,没有留下脚印,好像没来过这世界。

The Memory Keeper's Daughter

Just finished reading The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards.
It's story about a Dr giving away his Down Syndrome daughter, which was born soon after her healthy twin brother and how this complicates his life, his wife's and his son's as well.
The front part was quite dragging...
And then How could the Dr leave the secret without telling his wife and son, and died of heart attact?这叫报应。。。
the middle of the story is rich of emotional and psychological details...but ended quite abruptly without much of it...
Simply my own opinion,overall quite touching la...
What's next?