Thursday, 26 February 2009
Sunday, 22 February 2009
Recently when I am bored or alone, I will think of you.
The day you left, we cried. I once thought crying is cowardice.
I don't used to cry in front of ppl. I though I were tough enough.
But when I grew up I realized, doesn't cry doesn't mean that you are brave, strong or you can bear it. So, why not let the emotion flows naturally?
You are leaving our lives for few years, just like I left your life few years ago.
Although we can’t always be together, but I will cherish the memories we have.
Time will fly, and you will be back, transformed.
If I were to build a house (if, if I am financially stable and independent,haha), the architect must be you.
Being an architect was one of my childhood dreams, one of my ambitions. This idea nurtured because when we were young, there were bungalows built nearby our house. I loved to go to the construction sites. I jumped over the bricks; sands, played hide and seek, and imagined I was the owner of the house. I imagined of how to decorate the house, which room would be mine, what kind of furniture I would buy, how to paint the wall, where to put the piano, and importantly, to create a comfortable private library where I can hang out whenever I like without being disturbed.
Of course, finally I didn’t choose this field. Because I am afraid my creativities will diminish gradually and not long lasting. I don’t have confident.
As you know, I wanted to be a veterinary too. Because we’ve seen enough how the animals suffered from illness, how people ignored animals’ rights and how we sensed the impending doom whenever a cat or dog is sick. What a gloomy day. At that time, I thought of rescuing them will be the greatest job. Do you know? I dropped more tears for animals rather than human when I was small. Not many people understand. This feeling waxed and waned after years.
Eventually I choose my field because I think it will make papa and mama happier. Of course, I like this field too. The deeper I study, the more it answers my childhood queries about health and human body. Example, I realized my neck will swell up when I got an infection but I wasn’t know what was that until I learnt it is called lymph node. I wonder why I kick automatically when doctor hit my knee with a hammer until I know that it is a stretch reflex.
Just want to say, I am proud that you’ve select what is suitable for yourself. You do what you like in your own way, and not influenced by others. 你有性格，但有时有些冷漠。冷漠有时候并不是无情，只是一种避免被伤害的面具。You are individualistic, but sometimes you need to tolerate people as well...I can be individualistic sometimes. But i choose not to. I choose to fit into the society. Because if i were, mama will get headache...haha...
Sorry we don't manage to sing karaoke together before you left. I am looking forward November.:P
"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."
Shit...suffer from dysmenorrhoea(period pain) in the midnight.
It woke me up. I fought with it.
I refrain myself from taking pain killer.
Ppl said it's not good to take pain killer.
The shooting, crampy colicky pain is still there.
I could not sleep.
I kept moving.
I kept turning.
I could not sleep.
I felt hot.
I hit the pillow.
I pressed the pain.
I went to toilet.
Felt like abdominal cramping.
Felt like wanted to pass motion but actually not.
It's a deception.
The prevalence of dysmenorrhoea among reproductive-aged woman is 45-90%.
It's a leading cause of absenteeism among ladies in their workplace/school.
So i am not considered unlucky, am i?
One and half hour has passed.
I took the PCM.
Sometimes. i do suffer from PMS-premenstrual syndrome.
PMS, is a group of symptoms that start one to two weeks before your period.
Most women have at least some symptoms of PMS, and the symptoms go away after their periods start.
Common PMS symptoms include
- Breast swelling and tenderness-yes.good. add some cup.kidding.
- Acne-yes, but mild
- Anxiety-yes,causes difficulty in sleeping
- Insomnia-what i am doing now?it's nearly 5 am.
- Bloating and weight gain-weight gain yes
- Pain - headache or joint pain-No!
- Food cravings-Yes.Sweet stuffs.Biscuits.Chocolate.Unhealthy junk food.
- Irritability, mood swings-Yes.Felt very down 2 days ago. I am sorry to my room mate. Thanks because u try to cheer me up. I am sorry.
- Crying spells-Yes.2 days ago.Crying in the bathroom for no reasons. Crying during sleep. Maybe i was thinking of you my dear.
- Depression-Nop. that is too serious.
For your information, the risk factors for period pain include :
- High caffeine intake-Yes. I take coffee to combat sleepiness. But will not exceed one cup per day and i dont take rich coffee.I will sleep a lot if I don't take.I cant stand if i dont sleep 8 hours per day. I know it is not good. So i will try to sleep more afterwards.
- Stress may precipitate condition-Last week was exam.Yes.
- Increasing age- I am getting OLDER.....
- History of depression-No!
- Tobacco use-No.
- Family history-Mom and sis dont have...Yeen,do u have?
- Dietary factor-low levels of Magnesium, Manganese, Vitamin E.-No, i took multivitamin from Amway. My body reservoir is enough for years.
I've been using it since secondary school.
It is used traditionally to cure period pain and breast tenderness.
It is very rich in polyunsaturated omega-6 fatty acids, which are necessary fatty acids that body needs to complete numerous functions including insulin absorption, regulating the heart, and regulating mood. The body does not manufacture these fatty acids on its own, so they have to be taken as food or food supplements. EPO has linoleic acid and gamma-linolenic acid (“GLA”). Both of these acids are very important and very beneficial to general well-being. Linoleic acid is thought to help the body make use of insulin, regulate weight, and prevent cancer and heart disease. GLA is thought to reduce swelling or irritation. Because of the high GLA content of evening primrose, it is recommended to help treat inflammatory ailments like asthma or arthritis. Many of the benefits of evening primrose have yet to be thoroughly studied. It has been known to improve acne, eczema, psoriasis, and other skin problems.
I took this article from a website, haha. Because i dont really know what other benefits it could give.I know that it is high in GLA and linoleneic acid because it is writtem on the bottle.
For your info,u need to take at least few months(3) to see its effect.
Side effect?Headache, indigestion, nausea,soft stools. Which I dont have, but i do believe things come in good and bad.
Hm, I hope I can sleep soundly after blogging.
Saturday, 21 February 2009
Watched Slumdog Millionaire last evening.
Quite a special story. It was about a poor and uneducated 18 year old boy, was a contestant of "Who Wants to Be A Millionaire".
He was one questions away from becoming the winner.
But he was suspected in cheating and was arrested and interrogated.
He explained how he got the answers. The answers were in his life history....
A mixture of money and love.
Dev Patel is cute!
Hope they win in Oscar.
Cant stop thinking how he plunged into the shit pool just to get his idol's signature....
I got a thyroid patient this time. Luckily I've seen this patient the day before my exam. HEhe.
If not i will never know what was happening...
The question Dr Q threw to me was,"I want you to look at this young lady's neck and proceed." Huh...what's wrong with her neck? There was no goitre or any prominent swelling.
Her neck was beautiful and normal...but she was looking at me with a "staring gaze".
Ok, showmanship is vital. I pretended that i don't know her and proceeded.
My hands were trembling when i was doing a lid lag test and examine for ophthalmoplegia (eye weakness), as if i was the one who suffers from hyperthyroidism....
Initially Dr Q wanted to bring me to a psoriatic (niu2 pi2 xian3) patient.
Huhu...luckily the patient was not around...
People fight more bravely after every war...Or at least constantly.
But my energy seems to wear off...how should i recharge?
I need some inspiration. Hmm...gotta find the inspiration.
CRP(is an abbrevation of??) is coming next week. Not looking forward at all. No idea.
Will not have any lectures or classes for this one month. Heard that this year CRP at Pahang.
Good..near to Kelantan...
This car...was ruined in a car accident. Was shocked to see this at first.
Fortunately only minor injuries for the driver.
Heard that someone's has put these photo's on a forum without the consent from the owner.
Confidentiality is the main concern here.
Well, it's the disadvantage (or advantage?) of the modern technology.
Bad news spread faster than anything else.
Stop condemning and accuse anyone without knowing the real situation.
Anyhow, safety is paramount.