Friday 9 January 2009

22 years old...



This is my 22nd birthday cake. Wasn't at home to celebrate birthday for almost 3 years...I was actually quite surprised that dad will order a cake for me, because he never do that previously. This is the first birthday cake i receive from him^-^It's TIRAMISU~~dad likes it. Of course i love it. Even Jacky likes it~~:P No grand celebration. No Presents. The well-being of my family, and birthday song by them are my greatest presents...

Thank you mom,dad,
Sister and brother.







Thursday 8 January 2009

The Brain Game

This is an interesting game I found in Facebook .It's called The Brain Game.
It tests which site of your brain is dominating. Left hemisphere, or right hemisphere?
Which way can you see the dancer turning?
Believe it or not?That you can actually see the lady spinning CLOCKWISE or COUNTER-CLOCKWISE, depending on which part of your brain is dominating.
Well,most of the time i see it as clockwise spinning. Only when i concentrate properly, it turns counter-clockwise.
So, the interpretation is: i am Right-brained. It says that Right brained people tend to be subjective, creative, intuitive and holistic. Some famous right-brainers are Picasso, Mozart and William Shakespeare.

Fail to see both directions? Here's the trick:


Here's another one. The woman is facing towards you or away from you?

Well, if she is facing towards you. You are an extrovert person and vice versa.










Sunday 4 January 2009

management of resources??

Can you believe?
that We actually have to study about managing human resource, finance, materials...
this Tuesday have to sit for this PPD paper.
Cant really appreciate it...
They say it is for the sake of our future...
In case we are going to run a hospital or health clinic...
In case we are distributed to rural area...
Hate it...difficult to remember, man...

Friday 2 January 2009

从返medicine ward

Surgery posting刚完,又进入第二个Medicine posting 了。
昨天配
SLclerk 病人。
病人是个
66岁的老人家,得了肛门癌。扩散到肝脏去了。但病人显然对于自己的病情知道仅皮毛。并且相信这是以前得罪了某人而被下降头。
(它应该属于
surgery ward的,为什么在这里呢?是的,他最终被referredsurgery ward了)
我们想摸摸看他那肿大的肝脏及脾脏(
hepatosplenomegaly)。
应该会很硬。容易摸到。
和病人聊了一阵,病人很合作。
SL便开始检查他的身体。我在一旁看。

检查开始不久,还没摸到肚子,病人开始哭了起来。SL起初以为pakcik只是伤风,吸吸鼻涕。我在一旁,却感觉到乌云布满天空。。。一时不知所措。

这不是第一次看到病人哭。之前看到的,都是病人诉说病情时,泪在眼眶打转,没掉出来,或是病人家属哭泣。

但这一次,pakcik哭了。

SL停止了检查。以关怀的语气问他,:“怎么啦,你有什么问题吗?”

我觉得很佩服她。一些人往往只想从病人身上套出病例及检查他们千疮百孔的身躯,而忽略了病人的情绪。

“没有,只是想到,爸爸妈妈走了,兄弟姐妹也离世了,现在只剩我一个,很孤单。。。” pakcik一边哽咽,一边说着。

也许,pakcik的第六感告诉他,他的身体已不再像以前那么健壮。
人是不是在茫然的时候,尤其健康亮起红灯,总会想起当初健壮时的美好,以及当初还健在的家人。。。是的,我每次生病的时候,觉得格外寂寞。如果有妈妈在身边多好。。。就算痛苦也不孤单寂寞。

我的泪水已经在眼眶里打转着了。也听到SL吸气。但是我们总不能和病人一起抱头痛哭吧。。。
是我们懦弱吗?不是,我相信我们是用心地去接近他。所以能感受到他的悲伤。。。
我尝试让他想些快乐的事情,所以把话题转开。。。

“你有孙子不会寂寞啊。。。他们会来看你的。多好啊,两个曾孙。。。他们什么名字。。。
听说在森林里,军人常常见到鬼呢。。。你见过吗?
你打败敌人,当堂手道冠军,全村人不是很开心咯。。。我也有学堂手道呢,但是打到绿戴而已,没你厉害。。。”

Pakcik开始往回忆里游走。。。

Pakcik有一段辉煌的过去。曾经是军人的他,告诉我们他那时身体多么强壮,而且还是堂手道黑戴冠军。打败了无数对手。现在,却一天天消瘦,也吃不下饭。

“你会好起来的。”最后我说出口,我知道这只是安慰他的话。扩散到肝去了。。。这句话的胜算有多少呢。。。
但是,
pakcik擦擦眼泪点了头。。。像是得到满足的安慰了。。。

之后,我们走了。
有时候,接触病人,并不仅仅只为了得到病例。。。
病人心灵上的慰藉,往往被我们忽略。
感谢这位病人让我俩摸到了硬化的肝脏及脾脏。。。

我不会忘记这些病人的。他们是我们的良师。
我们的每一次学习,都在削薄着他们微弱的生命及光阴。
他们不是都用着生命让我们去学习?