Showing posts with label random. Show all posts
Showing posts with label random. Show all posts

Sunday, 12 June 2011

New Hairstyle

This is my original hair...a bit wavy,very healthy, yet difficult to manage, and I can't go out without tying a pony tail...It's so embarrassing to go out with a leonine-like hair..


Instead of half curly, let's make it 100% curly so I can go out without being embarrassed...haha...


I just don't know how to adjust the flash...looks so pale, so geli...
Up until now, 2x rebondings and 2x curly hair...Tie~
What else can girls do to their hair??
Don't tell me to go bald...

Saturday, 4 June 2011

Stepping Stones

Once you understand what is a stepping stone, then you will feel relieved of what you are doing...

Stepping stone, like an elevator, to reach something higher, something you really desire.

Sometimes life is not that straight forward.

In "Beautiful Boxer", a Thailand movie based on a true story of how a man become a woman. He embarked himself into brutal kick boxing in order to earn money, so that he could undergo operation to become a woman.

Professional kick-boxer is not her destiny. Her destiny is, a woman. How paradoxical and irony, that, he plunged himself into a masculine world in order to reach to the feminine self.



Tun Mahatir himself does not want to become a doctor at first place. He wanted to study law. But his family could not afford. And he got scholarship to do medicine. So he did. Because he wanted to become a leader, he wanted to be heard.
Politics and leadership is his destiny. Doctor, not.

People might say life is short to fulfill so many dreams.
But, never forget what you really want to be.
Whatever you endure, just treat it as a stepping stone.

Wednesday, 18 May 2011

想看。。。

现在很想看。。。

侯文咏的《白色巨塔》。是的,1999年的作品,我过时了。

"Water For Elephant", 两年前在书展里发现的一本书,很想买,可是那本是翻译的书,我比较喜欢原文。而且书皮烂了,所以我没买。

好吧,若在书店看到,就会买。还是有谁肯借给我看?
虽然有家里还有很多读物,好比Dalai Lama的My Spiritual Journal,Tun Mahathir的A Dr In the House(很厚的一本书!),Naseem 的The Crying Tree...都是妈妈买的。

可是阅读很看心情的。。。
有时可以只看报纸。有时很想看文学。有时科幻,有时哲学、漫画;有时候爱情哲学、爱情故事。

Thursday, 21 April 2011

Nightmare?

I was just about to fall asleep, did it happen too fast?
It was like seconds after I dozed off, I dreamt that my brother was holding FROGS in his hands, and he threw it to my direction!! I woke up flabbergasted, felt cold in the heart.
I told the story to my brother the next day, and he just smiled.
Maybe I ate too much NAM-NAM, the frog-like fruit.I mentioned it in facebook.
I dont think it's a dream, because it happened too fast...
Can REM phase(the stage when you dream) occurs so fast??normally it takes around 90 minutes to reach that state...

I remember in psychiatry I learned about the term hypnopompic and hynagogic hallucination.
In hypnagogic, eg. one can hear the bell rings or people calling one's name while falling asleep. In fact, it's just a vivid, dreamlike hallucination.
In hypnopompic hallucination, it occurs when one is waking up.
These are quite common.

Suddenly I feel eager to do some "research" on “鬼压身”,which I once experienced it during age of 14-15. At that time, I was awake, but my body just couldn't move. I trully heard noises surrounding me, but I couldnt comprehend it.
So, I googled it.
It is called "sleep paralysis", or 梦魇(眼)in Chinese, or "kena tindih" in Malay.
I was not really that afraid at that time, because I know it can be explained.
被鬼压 does not literally mean being "pressed by a ghost". In fact, it is an inability to perform voluntary movements when falling alseep or upon awakening, because the body is in REM phase, which is a deep sleep stage, whereby you cant move your body at this stage. But, somehow your mind remains aware.Once REM completed, you are fully awake and can move your body.
Of course, I've heard lots of ghost stories regarding this theme.
Like ppl who is having sleep paralysis, waking up to see one big fat guy sitting on his tummy, causing the paralysis...blah blah...eerie yet funny.
Haha.

Sunday, 10 April 2011

那种锥心之痛,只有经历过的人,才了解。
我不说我懂,因为我没经历过。

Friday, 18 February 2011

Merlot

Bought a merlot red wine for first time.Am I insane?
But of all the alcoholic beverages, the most acceptable one is red wine.
I am not sure whether i wanna drink it or not.not for fun.the mood is different.
The problem is...i realised i dont have a fridge to keep it after paying money....

Saturday, 25 December 2010

People out there are celebrating their x-mas merrily, I am doing my autopsy report, and completed my compulsion to clean the toilet...haha.
It doesn't matter, not my day.

Monday, 13 December 2010

Emptiness.Blue.Sleepy.

Monday, 8 November 2010

Fear

Nothing is more fearful than facing death....

Sunday, 4 July 2010

Wanderer

I am lost...for a long time.
Wanderer...get back to real situation...
You've been away for too long.
This time you are going to fight for yourself...

Monday, 12 April 2010

负担

负担是当你拥有全世界,而他的全世界只有你,而已。



Sunday, 7 February 2010

时间的正义

我相信世界是不公平的。。。

庆幸的是,时间决不会因你贫富老少而眷顾、厚待你。

也许,随着时间的流逝,大家得到的,是价值不一的人生经验、心境和体验。

是看你如何衡量,才能达到平衡点。

看开一些,就能解开心灵束缚。

这样想,会平衡一点。

i always belief that this world is unfair. 

Fortunately, time treats us equally, regardless of your possession and age.

As time passes, we all gain different experiences, values.

It depends on your ability, to find an equilibrium point.

Learn to accept and adjust to free yourself from the burdened soul.

Then u will find the balancing point.


Saturday, 19 December 2009

大地不属于人类,而人类属于大地

无意间读到一篇于18年前的报道,说地球已经有四十六亿的岁数,如果把这四十六亿浓缩成30天,生命在第10 天形成,而人类,只不过在一分钟前出生。。。

美国印第安酋长西雅图在100多年前就曾指出:“大地不属于人类,而人类属于大地。一切都是相互关连,所有发生在大地的事情,必将回应到人类身上……对大地的伤害,是对造物主的轻蔑。如果你弄脏了自己的环境,总有一天会窒息在你所丟弃的垃圾之中。”

这一句让我想到了wall-E。地球被人类遗弃,因为它的环境不再适合人类居住。而垃圾的罪魁祸首,是人类。
也让我想到avatar里,人类把贪婪建筑在别的星球上。omaticaya 族群参杂了原住民色彩,是我喜欢的。

原住民把大地归于造物主, 他们爱他们的造物主,也爱这片大地,完美的融化于这片大地。偏偏,他们却是被打压、遗忘的族群。澳洲甚至出现stolen generations,既是原住民的小孩被拿走,
以「白化」原居民。。。

而有着信仰造物主的其他人类,却肆无忌惮的摧毁这片大地!多么无耻。

人类不过在一分钟前出生。
人类不过是宇宙中连细菌都不如的微生物,又何得何能,认为世界是属于他们的?
愚蠢的人类,甚至还用国际、肤色、性别、宗教、信仰,来区别人类。
殊不知,人类属于大地。