YAY!

Yay!i made it!
The end of "Final Hurdle".
Now i can't scold if someone call me Dr...hehe...
What a wonderful graduation night...
The feeling is kinda mix now.The climax came down.
And now,a new journey is awaiting ahead of me...
The journey of a doctor.

less than 24 hrs to go

Flashbacks. Repeating thoughts. Uncertainty. Am suffocating....I should have ran out from this place for the sake of myself. Using LOUD and NOISY music to make myself numb... NUMB.DUMB.FUMBLING. Can I fast forward the time??

It's over

Finally it's over.Hard to describe the feelings...
Lots of worry.
I thought I could sleep like pig after exam, yet I woke up earlier than expected.
How much time do I need to recover from this stupor-like condition....
When can I gain back my appetite and the usual me?

Waiting for judgement day...
Pls...once is enough.

Praying hard.

Pray~

Keep praying hard for last day!!
At least for long case, I had some clue of how to begin with...thank god!
even though I said I dislike paeds...but my instinct told me i will get paediatrics specialty again and it became true...
So, fight for thurday!3 short cases,10 min each....PALPITATION!

忍着~~星期四就结束了~~！
我要它彻底得结束。。。
精神上的折磨，星期四就得以解脱了。。。

想象考试后想做些什么。。。
just imagine...

我找到不自责的原因了。。。

double shadow of the right heart...it's mitral stenosis...maybe i am wrong.secondary to rheumatic heart?but i wrote right heart hypertrophy...haha...it's left heart hypertrophy actually...shit...

ankylosing spondylosis...周杰伦有的病。。。为什么我认不出那个x-ray呢？
老师一定笑死我的答案。。。

OK, one component is over.
Tomorrow will be another big component!OSCE-objective structured clinical examination, where we have to run here and there like a game station...each is 5 minutes...so syok!have to own a strong heart for that....
This is the real KILLER.
so ganbateh!!!

wau, double dosing（咖啡+鸡精） 后果是那么精神的。。。晚上会不会很累呢？

我的妈呀。。。越来越坐立不安了。。。倒数两天。。。
害怕。。。
但是我相信大家都是一样的。。。紧张。
别害怕!

是谁拿走了我的Ear nose throat 的笔记？？
到现在还找不到元凶。。。
我气我自己，没好好照顾自己的东西。。。

生气！！！！！！！

LOA

Loss of appetite,
Does this mean the starting of depression??
Must Jia you.
The springtime is within sight.
Once breakthrough, opportunity is awaiting for me to grasp.

a chaotic mind

is having headache and palpitation since 2pm...
pls follow my heart.to do whatever i've plan.
pls dont be afraid.for you still have one week.
no benefits of being so stressed now...
time is ticking...

Sympathetic stimulation

Shit...how can i stop this sympathetic activation...heart pounding fast...muscles all tensed up...
The typical exam syndrome strikes again...
1st day insomnia, i thought it was caffeine effect so i cut it down the next day...
2nd day insomnia, i am pretty sure it has nothing to do with caffeine...
It's the spark of sympathetic stimulation...
Once it is on, it's hard stop it.
I know I am not alone. But it's difficult to control.
The way to overcome it is to meet my own demand, which I found it hard sometimes...
Created this Final Hurdle...so I can shout out my feelings...

OK.Let's get back to my study and see how.
Have 1/3 cup of coffee....

U can't steal one's mind. u can't read one's mind.
Unless you are sincere.

nervous...can't stop fidgeting...
end of posting short case only...
Ai...ai...must cool down la...
U have 3 short cases in one shot for final...
so pls cool down...take this as practice.