People out there are celebrating their x-mas merrily, I am doing my autopsy report, and completed my compulsion to clean the toilet...haha.
It doesn't matter, not my day.

yeah yeah~

yeah, yeah,in holiday mood now~~~going back home to recharge!
i like to learn. but dont like exam~~~
because i have to sit still and cant spend my time with my family~~~
bye bye schnederian symptoms of first rank....all those typical and atypical drugs...
temporarily...catch u back later....

改气还是该笑？

上两次被psy病人无缘无故骂我没关系。。。
当他们有mental illness看待就好。
吃个冰淇淋心情就好多。。。
他们说不可以跟这些病人吵，因为他们是失去理智的人。
如果不是今天的事情发生，我还以为我很可怜了。。。
怎知我和友人今天oncall抽血时，一个aunty边走边和“不存在的人们“说话时，突然跑向友人，捉着她边用手打她，
边骂：“你这个死人头！”
友人吓到不知发生什么事情，我赶快呼喝那aunty:"你在干什么??"

aunty突然清醒过来：“对不起，我以为她是我女儿。”

天啊。。。这种病，好严重。。。
已认不清现实和幻觉了。
所谓的loss of ego boundary.

Emptiness.Blue.Sleepy.

Great escape:P

I feel energetic after a break and a great escape...
Sometimes a great escape is needed,to refresh my mind...
To get the mood into the baseline.Not heighten.Not deepen.
Just need the grab.

But,at night,i suffered from insomnia.
Just because of a glass of Hong Kong Milk Tea.
Darn!

看了disney 的 Rapunzel过后，很想重温所有的迪斯尼卡通！
真是越做越好~佩服alan menken,好像久石让。。。没有那些轰轰烈烈的音乐，会少了很多感动~！
在这个没童话的世界，就让我暂时沉沦在小孩的世界吧。。。。。。

真的没感情？没真的感情？

weirdest conjoint twin....

Fear

Nothing is more fearful than facing death....

T_T

那么微小的几率,为什么是你?
心都揪着了...
不能叫你别哭,也不能阻止自然界的玩笑.

你太猖狂

公平

我不是没有感觉，只是习惯隐藏。
我学习了很久，才知道适当的时候表达伤感，是ok的。
我不是真的很坚强，只是习惯不用眼泪表达伤感。
不哭泣，是因为学会眼泪不是解决事情的方法。
不哭的人，我想他们眼泪早已掉干了吧。

但是面对死亡，我没有办法。
他说这是病人家属把他们的emotion transfer给我了。
所以我在承受他们的痛。

我当时在想，人在死前若没能完成梦想，多么悲哀。
生命输了，死神赢了。
婚姻输了，自尊赢了。
人生有那么多要相斗的事情。
只有在死神面前，大家都是公平的。

未来靠谁？

在家靠父母，在外靠朋友。
未来，可以靠谁？？
时间在流逝，事物在变;
人来人往，我在学习成长。
那些回不去的从前，多么珍贵。
此刻，不是永恒。
未来，那么近，那么远。
希望以后，还是可以相信这个世界。。。
未来得靠自己了。。。

告诉我,是我错了

当我正在看病人的case note时，一位华人aunty走向我， 说：“医生，我妈妈很辛苦，她的氧气管好像掉了。。。你可不可以看看她？”

“我不是医生。。。”
我看看附近没有医生，就建议aunty通知护士。。。我们一起到了隔壁房，看见一位护士A。。。
“护士，我妈妈呼吸很辛苦，可以做些什么？”
“医生不是告诉你了吗（你妈妈没救，要死了）？？”
“是。。。”aunty小声地说。。。
“然后你还要（我做）什么？？ ” 这恶劣的词语，竟出自一位白衣天使口中。。。


我自己不忍心跑去看那位婆婆了。。。
我看了那位婆婆，她的氧气管掉出鼻孔了，闭着眼，不清醒的用力呼吸着。。。她的呼吸很急促。。。
我把氧气管放好位置。。。再检查是不是有漏气。。。没有。。。为什么婆婆呼吸那么幸苦呢？
“婆婆嘚什么病，那么辛苦？”
“肺癌。。。医生说可能过不了今晚。。。所以我们在这里。。。”
她的眼神告诉我一种不安，她知道，她妈妈要离开了。。。
我拍了拍她肩膀，没说一句，只可用眼神安慰她，然后继续看我的case note。。。
我没即刻去找医生，以为告诉了护士A，一个看护使者，会做些什么，哪里知道态度那么恶劣。。。

我心里感到不安，觉得婆婆会辛苦，会不会因为我不理而真的死去。。。aunty一家人会失望。。。
所以我又跑去前面通知另一个护士。。。
这位护士B起码跟我一起朝病人病房走。。。

半途，护士A突然盯着我，指着我说：“你为什么要多事去叫人？？这个是我的病人，不需要你这位medical student插手！！” “你只是个medical student, 你以为你是谁？凭什么插手？？” （你以为你是sister吗？ ）

我站在那里愣住，从没看过披着白衣制服的天使，尖牙利嘴地对我呼喊。。。
当护士B走上前了，护士A继续轰炸我：“我要你拿你所有的东西，立刻走开，我不要你在这里！！”

我火滚了，坚持说 ： “我要在这里，我有我的东西要做，我要看case note。” 你不是sister,你没有权利这么做。
“我不允许，你在这里阻挡我做东西，我要你滚去conference room,不要给我站在这边!我要你即刻消失！"
我看了她五秒，给她一个disgusting look, 转身气愤走开了。。。

是的，婆婆是末期病人，可是不可能死到这么没尊严。。。要死了连最起码的安慰也不能给。死了也没护士照顾，每医生看。。。这是什么一个鬼医院？？？？？？？？
这种情况我们固然改变不到结局，也做不到太多。。。
但是你的presence, 你看一下病患，慰问家属，至少对家属是一种心灵上的支持，也是对病患的尊重！！

护士，如果那人是你妈妈你会怎样？？
护士，你是什么鬼？？？魔鬼！
护士，不要以为你批过毕业袍，就从此合格。
护士，不要以为你经验多，就呼喝我们这些hierarchy里最低层的人。。。
你是因为品德而高尚，不是经验！
这些护士，总以为自己是被欺负的一群，躲在高层保护人身后偷懒。。。自视甚高。。。
我漂亮的一天就给你毁了！！

no title

焚烧记忆，让生活从新萌芽。。。

出发咯。。。

1. Remember to look up at the stars and not down at your feet.
2. Never give up work. Work gives u meaning and purpose. Life is empty without it.
3. If u r lucky enough to find love, remember it is rare, and don't throw it away.
~Stephen Hawking.this time not abt bing bang theory, but some advices.

九幺幺

the day WTC collapsed in 2001, ignites the hatred and angers in million of ppl. 9 years later, a pastor and his followers want to burn Quran blatantly，added the tensions between america and fellow Muslims around the world.
Fanatics.....冤冤相报何时了？
若宗教成为伤害他人的利器，太可悲了。。。
if it really happens, how many ppl would be sacrificed then?

何去何从

dreams...is something that u want but it is hard to achieve...
so, if u break the wall and reach your dream, is that dream still consider a dream?
or in the end we are not contented because we have so many dreams to achieve?
so what's your dreams?
to me, it's something empowering u, driving u...to move on.with life.
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what do i want to reach in my life?
once, i was afraid of drifting and wandering.
Now i ask myself, isn't it i was doing that for the pass 5 years?
因为年轻，所以漂泊。。。因为年轻，所以流浪。。。
不是注定要漂泊的吗？为何在海上滞留那么久？
因为不确定岛屿的方向?
还是害怕到了一个不是属于自己的岛屿?

本来对超级星光大道没什么兴趣了，没看到什么实力派唱将，今晚却意外发现这个阎奕格有看头~
赞同david老师！

有胆量唱christina aguilera的歌的人没几个，就以亚洲人来看，她算唱得不错，看看陶子在2：37时的表情就知道那三个nene的会输。。。

The ending of doraemon

although this is a fan fiction, it is a touching ending...

When there was no entertainment and internet when we were young, Doraemon was our best companion~

Apology

I learn to apologise when I make mistake. And I apologise when I really mean it.
I learn to forgive, as I dont accumulate tiny minute of unhappy memories to make myself suffer.
Life is short, too short to waste time on hatred.

Why it is so hard for us to say sorry?
Because we dare not admit our own mistake.
In the process of covering our own mistake, anger normally supercedes our conscience.

Instead, I feel sorry for them.
Because they dont' know any better.

哇。。。快疯了。。。跟了几天的case,最终没有diagnosis...怎么写case summary呢？？
要换case就得快了。。。糟糕。。。

Wanderer

I am lost...for a long time.
Wanderer...get back to real situation...
You've been away for too long.
This time you are going to fight for yourself...

kalama sutta

In Buddhism a type of freethought was advocated by Gautama Buddha, most notably in the Kalama Sutta:

"It is proper for you, Kalamas [the people of the village of Kesaputta], to doubt, to be uncertain; uncertainty has arisen in you about what is doubtful. Come, Kalamas. Do not go upon what has been acquired by repeated hearing; nor upon tradition; nor upon rumor; nor upon what is in a scripture; nor upon surmise; nor upon an axiom; nor upon specious reasoning; nor upon a bias towards a notion that has been pondered over; nor upon another's seeming ability; nor upon the consideration, 'The monk is our teacher.' Kalamas, when you yourselves know: 'These things are bad; these things are blameable; these things are censured by the wise; undertaken and observed, these things lead to harm and ill, abandon them. "...Do not accept anything by mere tradition... Do not accept anything just because it accords with your scriptures... Do not accept anything merely because it agrees with your pre-conceived notions... But when you know for yourselves—these things are moral, these things are blameless, these things are praised by the wise, these things, when performed and undertaken, conduce to well-being and happiness—then do you live acting accordingly."

http://blog.thestar.com.my/permalink.asp?cat=1&id=30376

the beautiful mind?

生命最后一个月的花嫁

看了几段《生命最后一个月的花嫁》的video，就足够让我掉泪和心情沉重。。。。。。
这是个记录了一位日本年轻乳癌病患在生命中最后一个月的生活剖白，以唤起女性醒觉。。。
怎么让我看这样的真实纪录片?心情很难过,就像我读了冯以量的<陪你到最后>。。。

能够深深体会到，因为曾和hospis的义工到临死病人家探望，接触了在生死边缘挣扎的病患,让我上了生命宝贵的一课。
从前没去仔细的想，因为觉得事情很遥远，好像根本不会发生在自己身上，所以漠不关心。

但自从几件事情后，不尽感叹生命无常。。。
你能够预测到明天会发生什么事情吗？
五年后，你能确保一切留在原地，什么都没改变吗？
我不能想象如果这样的事情发生在我身上，会是怎样？
就像千惠说的：好像听别人的故事一样。。。
当男友问她：你每天在病房里做什么？她答：努力活着。。。
怎么可以这样不公平？
怎么可以有这么坚强的人？
怎么可以有一个这样坚贞不渝的爱情？

能够健健康康的活过每一天，就是一种恩惠与幸福。。。
要珍惜每一天，珍惜每一个呼吸~~~

一个人

不知第几次一个人看戏了？
有时害怕孤单，有时却乐在其中。
有时喜欢人潮，有时却想远离人潮。

我以为我会害怕孤单，原来我可以适应。

儿科的遗憾

很多人问我，会当paediatrician吗？
没有绝对的答案， 但我不会。
许多人都把儿科医生与爱心画上同等号。
其实不然。

House MD 里的一句话：
what would you prefer-a doctor who holds your hand while you die or one who ignores you while you get better? I suppose it would particularly suck to have a doctor who ignores you while you die.
爱心就是当病人生病时你照顾他，而他健康时你就不理他？
所以，爱心对我而言，是多方面的。。。而不是你喜欢他，对他好，就是有爱心。
当然，没有人是十全十美的。。。

也许我不太喜欢这样的制度。
为了学问， 你要悯而好学、不耻下问。
而不耻下问的后果往往是充满讽刺。
不问也被讽刺，问了也被嘲讽。该怎么办呢？
也许我是吃软不吃硬的人。

Get your armour, get your armour~~it’s like a battlefield, battlefield, a battlefield。。。
Ok, 这边歌颂的不是jordin spark的爱情战场。
每一天我都过得提心吊胆的。不知何时踩到地雷。
所以从今我要穿上装甲！built a great great wall on my face…

我能够明白为什么东方人与西方人的学习态度差别那么大了。。。
因为他们发问及回答问题的空间很大，没有限制。答对答错，lecturers会说well done, or good try, but….所以往往西方人比我们东方人敢发问或回答问题。
而我们的教育系统，甭提了。我们都是从坎坷的教育系统一路走来。再继续也没什么大碍吧~~
当paediatricians 的医生们就有母爱或父爱吗？
其实也不然。
他们忙着照顾别人的孩子的当儿，自己的孩子呢？
如果能够两全其美，我五体投地。
既然不能够两全其美，那我宁愿牺牲当儿科。
为什么可以对小孩那么无微不至，转身却对我们冷嘲热讽？甚至大声喊骂？
小孩需要关照，他们是脆弱的，他们是人，所以需要爱心。而我们什么都不是。

再想想一个scenario,一个垂死的老人家及垂死的儿童同时入院，他们都需要进入ICU(Intensive care unit)接受治疗，不然必死无疑。但是ICU只剩下一个床位，你会选择admit谁？
光想到答案，我就反感了。年龄成可贵。。。生命价更高啊。。。
当然现实上这个可能不会发生？我可以选择接受儿童，再把老人transfer去另一家附近的医院嘛。。。

也许我想太多，因为刚刚才被一个医生讽刺了。都是我们的错，不该怪罪于别人。别理我，不是弱不禁风，只是发发牢骚。

如果会当儿科医生，因该就只有一个原因。

负担

负担是当你拥有全世界，而他的全世界只有你，而已。

There u go-3D vaginal delivery

Distressing

This is really really distressing....
It is not because we are not hardworking enough, it is simply because we don't have luck.
The only thing that make me sick of labour room....is the never ending waiting for NOTHING...
NOTHING AT ALL.
Ok, now enthusiasm worn out by long hour of waiting...and the monsters keep on scolding us for trivial things or for nothing.No matter u are right or wrong.They just wanna scold u.
Absurd.
And now i had to plead ppl for giving me a chance to deliver, which is something I despise....
Why I had to plead?When this is our priority...When u want us to complete an assignment but there is no good environment and we have to struggle ourselves to survive, this is called 放屁。。。
I hate labour room now. Hate the place. Hate the environment. But not the job. There are still housemans and Drs, nurses who are really nice...

Hate it.

Headache headache headache....that is why I dont like argument....
Threw out some harsh words...then felt guilty...



Ignore it...it is not important at all...Just break it and make it utterly shattered instead of keeping it...it does not matter...all u have is not merely that...



Don't be childish.u are no kid anymore...do no harm.explain whenever u have chance because the second chance might not ever come. misunderstanding only makes thing worse and worse...and eventually become irreversible...so solve it...

如果这就是爱

谁的理想2

那一天我问你，你喜欢现在的生活吗？有后悔吗？
你说，其实生活过得还好，你没有后悔。
我很安慰。
我说：会累吗？你说：习惯了。。。
你说：是时候改变了。。。我说：是吗？是attitude要改变吗？
你说：It is the SYSTEM that should be changed!

今天我忘了上课。。。竟然没到。。。
我要反省了。
告诉我自己：
睡觉已经没那么重要了，要是你再这样下去，改天当houseman肯定是个被标为不负责任的人。。。
你要照顾病人的QOL,而不是自己的。不要再想往什么QOL-quality of life了。。。你的生活只有quantity。。。改天除了无数quantity的oncall,还是quantity。。。谁撑得最久谁就是赢家。。。

就算我再喜欢当医生，喜欢我所读的、所做的，我也不会喜欢上这样的生活。
态度是能够改变的。穷则变，变则通，通则久。
但你不能强迫一个人喜欢自己想读、想做的。
我是可以适应这样的生活。ganbate.

谁的理想

When can i stop using kodomo lion???It is tasteless!Dont feel refreshed at all
after using~~!!

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羡慕你的自由、羡慕你懂得享受人生。。。
羡慕你漂亮的人生舞台。引你为傲。。。
一路顺风~bon voyage

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那一天你问我, 为什么读医科?is this your ambition?
这是个回答了千百遍的问题。但我总是敷衍、漫不经心地回答。
我还是被你冷不防的问题愣住了。
是的，有多少人真正的想当医生？
你诚实的告诉我，这是你父母的理想。。。
对你的处境感到辛酸，但却很欣赏你可以面对、接受这样的生活。。。
也欣赏你这样坦荡荡的说出来。
我告诉你，我不是医人，就会跑去医动物。我家人说，医人比医动物好。。。
我没意见，况且我能通过别的方法，帮助动物~

很多时候，我们说，这是我的理想啊。。。
是因为，我们不敢承认，我们实现的不是我们的理想，而是别人的理想。
我们不敢承认因为我们不够勇敢。。
如果说因为成绩好而读医科，觉得这是理所当然，那你是背负着社会的理想，不是自己的。。。
其实背负着谁的理想没关系，人非完美，要对自己诚实就对了。。。

泛滥的爱

对于太过泛滥的爱，不太认同。
一定要表现得爱，才有爱吗？
真的爱，不能埋藏在心底吗？
有些感情事，如果时时把它戏剧化，就真的只剩下戏了，那还有什么意义？

认为被爱得不够，是不是因为不明白什么叫“守候”。。。
爱不需要被歌颂，它只需要被感觉。。。

In Love with Karen Mok~~

好听的编曲。。。独特的歌声~

post call

yesterday was my 2nd on call. it was a success coz i did not sleep and manage to deliver 2 babies and did 2 partial episiotomy repair...i feel sorry for my patient for hurting them.i m very grateful that they allow me to learn from them...
i took a nap from 6.30am...thought of waking up at 8.30am and go to tutorial class at 9am...
i dozed off and eventually my friend called me at 9.30am...as usual, i could not sort out what was happening in a short time...and then...SHIT...i was late for class...my heart was pounding very fast...i was very tired but with all my will, i hurried to the class...i cant imagine if this happen if i were a houseman now...luckily i wasn't scold for being late...she should have scolded me...
3 more on calls to go...jia you jia you....

I am Back.

Yeah!after spending one month of "isolation" at Banting Hospital, I am back!
If you longed for solitude and tranquil life, Banting is a good place.

Quite anxious for next posting, Obstetric posting where we are required to conduct 5 deliveries and do episiotomy repair...what a bloody job..

Read "The Best Laid Plan" by Sidney Sheldon which i borrowed from library of Blok Kuliah. It is recommended by JQ.
And another book entitled " Falling Leaves" by Adeline Yen Mah.

"The Best Laid Plan" is quite a good fiction book if u dont like too many emotional descrtiptions. Dialogues are plenty. It's more like reading a drama then a book. If u wanna try simple fiction, fast pace, without bewildered by bombastic words, this book is a pleasure.

"Falling Leaves" is sista's book. It's an autobiography of Adeline Yen Mah, an unwanted Chinese daughter of a wealthy family. I salute this author for her superb English(maybe my level is too low for her book), her determination to survive a lonely childhood, and her forgiveness towards her families in everything including betrayal of trust.

Few things i derived from this books: Indulgence of beauty of a father, who became irrational and ignorant to the author. most of the time when ppl are trying hard to content their children physically and materially, what really lack of is emotional necessity.

I tend to like books with emotional involvement, books where i can derive a lot of thoughts.
Maybe most of the time i tend to be emotionally detached from reality...
Which if u care much, u hurt yourself much...
I wish I could shed tears whenever I feel sad. I wish I could be fragile.
It become nebulous since when I picked up this camourflage?
Maybe this is what I am trying to search in those books, the long lost emotion for certain things.

醉

醉了的感觉是这样吗？

觉得很热，又轻飘飘的。很想吐。。。

很不好受。。。觉得身体都吃坏了。。。

这次并没睡着。。。

她们说我醉了都会睡觉。。。

这是四杯红酒下肚的后果。但我还很清醒。

可以写case summary,不错吧。。。

时间的正义

我相信世界是不公平的。。。

庆幸的是，时间决不会因你贫富老少而眷顾、厚待你。

也许，随着时间的流逝，大家得到的，是价值不一的人生经验、心境和体验。

是看你如何衡量，才能达到平衡点。

看开一些，就能解开心灵束缚。

这样想，会平衡一点。

i always belief that this world is unfair. 

Fortunately, time treats us equally, regardless of your possession and age.

As time passes, we all gain different experiences, values.

It depends on your ability， to find an equilibrium point.

Learn to accept and adjust to free yourself from the burdened soul.

Then u will find the balancing point.

Darkness

She said:"Do not lose your CONSCIENCE while treating your patient. Do not be dishonest to the patient, and to YOURSELF. Do not betray your conscience by telling different fact to your patient. Because of unscrupulous doctor who only thought about profit, now I lose my faith to Doctor.Can you become a good one in the future?"

"I was longing to go to my daughter's graduation, seeing my children getting married. I was a dancer. Now everything is ruined..."

I was in the brink of breaking down.

This was what a terminally ill patient told me, who chooses to end her life gradually at home instead of getting treatment.

Sometimes, we lose ourselves while fulfilling our dreams. We don't realize that we are changing in a way...a way that we can't even recognize ourselves. The power of darkness is overwhelming, that most of the time we surrender our soul...

The darkness is awaiting in the future. You can choose to enter, or retreat.
I hope the advice could help to illuminate me, from the impending darkness which hovers around.

BLIND...

If you are born colour-blinded, and no one tells you there are actually something called COLOURS in this world, you will stay colour-blinded the rest of your life without knowing that this world is embellished with beautiful colours.

I was incidentally found out to be stereotypical blind after reading a 3D chart (Thanks to XX, optometrist-to-be who did a full eye examination for me today. It is free of charge, at UKM's optometrist clinic. Anyone interested to be subject, can contact me)

Ehem...what is that?not much information i can find on Google. It is actually synonym to 3D blindness. I think this is a kind of condition, existing ever since the invention of 3D and advancing technologies.

If I were born 100 years earlier, should have no problem right? Television doesnt even exist that time.

The frustration was like this: You give me a blank page and ask me to read, i said i see nothing, but actually the reading lines do exist, you just can't see it.

It is like telling someone with colour-blind, try to imagine these colours: red, orange, yellow, pink....can u actually describe COLOURS?And tell one who doesn't even know its existence to imagine about?

My sis said i should be grateful that i am not colour-blind...
i said yeah lo...like u tell a colour-blinded person, u r lucky that u r not blind...
like telling a person without hands,u are lucky that you still have legs...
like telling a handicapped person, u are lucky that you sitll alive....

so, the lesson?appreciate whatever u have and 感恩？

Nothing serious actually...
I dont know i should be happy or sad....happy because i can save money for watching further 3D movies...sad because i cannot enjoy the 3D technologies anymore

If i were not told, will I still believe that I could see 3D like other people do? I even spent RM18 to watch world renowned 3D AVATAR...n i believe i was normal.

Do check yourself with friends around, maybe u have the same problem. I am searching for a new member.haha.....

In a Private Clinic

Did my general practice posting(GP) at Poliklinik Shaik at Kota Kemuning, Shah Alam. It's merely 4 minutes of driving from cousin's place. Was nervous the first day coz didn't know whether the Dr is going to be demanding or strict?Felt a little stressed up as i have to encounter this on my own.

The first day i went there, was wearing jeans and T-shirt before changing into formal attire. Didn't realise that i was in fact captured by 4 CCTVs it the clinic... 
I like the lamps and the lavender at the receptionist counter. The lighting and paintings remind me of Pizze Hut...

3 permanent staffnesses and 7 temporary workers working under this Poliklinik. Workers were busy at the receptionist counter.

                                                                                                         

Was suppose to spend 5 working day here, but since got tutorials and MPIS, i went there on the 4th working day at 7pm. I was worry whether i was able to complete my 50 patient's profile. But after 3 hours, I know it was not a problem. Dr seen more than 40 patients in 3 hours...

Inside the consultation room there was a framed stethoscope on the wall. It was Dr's first stethoscope given by his late father. Initially Dr's ambition was to be a pilot, but was then inspired by his late father to become a Dr. He graduated with first class from Manipal. Wow.

There were newly installed CCTVs, whereby Dr can monitor the receptionist counter, drug dispensing and waiting areas...

                                                 

UFEME and full blood count can be analysed by these machine at the bottom. The machine above is for what huh...

Drug storage...

ECG stress test.Just before i left the clinic today, was able to have a glimpse of ECG stress test. The room was well equipped with oxygen tank and defibrillator.....in case patient collapse.....

Advanced ECG recording..

Dr Shaik and nerdy I...

Despite just 3 days...i was able to see more than 100 patients...n befriended with the staffness.

复杂vs简单

你把别人想得太复杂，
也是因为你也不简单。

能看透别人的阴谋，是不是因为自己也有心机？
世上还有单纯的人吗？如果有，是装出来吗？
迟早会被荼毒。这样的人很难在世上生存。
有些人是真单纯，但单纯不能和懵懂相提并论。有些人蒙头蒙脑，但他并不单纯。
世界是复杂的。就因为复杂，才有纠纷、不合，才有战争。
社会是残酷的，想要不复杂都不行，因为身边的人都会神机妙算，让简单的你束手无策。
所以出社会工作的人，都会怀念读书的日子，因为那时的大家，都还没那么复杂。
不要讨厌政治，因为思想就是政治。
就因为大家的想法不同，才会进入不同帮派。
所以自你懂事以来，就在政治里打滚。

有没有简单一点的世界？
那里就是乌托邦。

不太能够接受越辩越复杂的自己。。。