在我很消极时，谢谢你。
告诉我二十五岁是珍贵宝贵岁月的开始。我会好好的过日子。让二十五到三十五岁活得灿烂绚丽的：）

父亲节快乐

感谢爸陪伴着我驾驶270公里回到怡保。每一次平安抵达都感恩。

不是我任性要驾车回家。
我只希望走惯了这崎岖曲折的路，我可以更常回家看你们。

爸爸对我们的爱从不是挂在嘴边的。
但是他们总以行动来表达。
不是每个人都会领悟。这需靠洞悉。
有者可以了解，有者却一辈子也不懂。

爸坚持从吉隆坡搭火车回吉兰丹。
为了赶得上从怡保到吉隆坡的巴士，爸来不及吃午餐就上车了。

我常常告诉他怡保有很多好吃的食物，但来不及让他品尝。
由于赶时间，只来得及买了三文治给他。
他说不饿，不用担心他。

上一代的人从来不轻易说他们累了、饿了。挨饿也会说不饿。

我带着不舍回到车上。想起他在路边买的两个buns。于是拿上巴士给爸。
看到爸正吃我买的三文治。
想必他饿坏了。

我走回车上，流泪了。

爸为了我游走了半个岛，还要挨饿挨累。我驾车只需4小时，但他为了陪我平安驾驶回来却花了24小时才可以回到家。

爸。对不起让你辛苦了。永远爱你。
父亲节快乐。

原来这是被蒙在鼓里的感觉。

那个与你很接近的人仿佛变的很遥远。很陌生。

不理了。想理别人也未必要你关心。

算了吧。自己顾好自己。

不看、不听、不问。

这是我最后能做的宽容。

TLC

Had a chance to go to palliative care unit for one week.

In palliative care unit, when a patient passes away, their family members remain calm and cool.

No denial, no anger, no hysterical cries.

Dato asked me why? I couldn't answer.

" Because at the time when the family members were told that the patient had a terminally ill disease, they already started to mourn. This is called anticipatory grief."

"So from the diagnosis to death, if it is 3 years, they have been mourning for 3 years."

"So when a patient eventually dies, it may be a relief for the family members."
No wonder. People cry hysterically when someone dies unexpectedly.

Because the death is too sudden.

Because they feel that they have not done enough for the deceased.

Because they feel guilty.

Have you ever had feeling of impending lost?
Or something important in your life is just about to, go?

It's sad to even think of it.