Wednesday, 11 January 2012

11.01.12

Today I was sent to follow our hospital blood bank drive. A meaningful present to myself.
At last manage to get 53 donours to donate their precious blood.
Although I repeated the questions and answers for so so many time while interviewing the donours, all my tiredness vanished when some of the donours wished me Happy Birthday after they spotted my tiny IC number printed on the namecard that I brought around on my labcoat.
There is also a stuff nurse sharing the same birth date with me.So happy that I am not alone.haha

Thursday, 8 December 2011

缺陷与尊严.The Disabled Pride

在诊所看病。
有一个新的领悟。
其实看了太多这样的case了。有些反胃。

生病,是让人从现实生活暂时逃避的一个出口,尤其是懦弱得可怜的人。
他们宁可向病痛投降,也不愿意面对现实。因为现实往往比病痛更血淋淋!
因为一点点病痛,宁愿选择呆在家不做工整年或一世,对,是一世!
因为无法承受生活中的压力,企图把它转移别人身上。
让妻子扛起家里所有事,包括挣卑微的钱养一家大大小小和那些懦夫!

确实,你折断了一条腿是很痛,但它会痊愈的。
请在痊愈后回到工作岗位吧,别拿那些无谓的长假,长期躲在女人背后,让女人养你。不要脸。

曾经,在我很累、很颓废、很沮丧、很忧郁时,好想生一场大病,让我有时间好好休息,暂时逃避责任、喘口气。但那只是闪过脑袋的一丝想法。往往有这种想法时,都会吸口气,甩掉它。

那些人,简直滥用生病的权利!
生病时当然会得到相对合理的病假,但那不是理所当然的权利。
有者甚至只因为plantar fasciitis(即heel那里生了骨刺而导致脚板疼痛)而想借此申请成为OKU-即orang kurang upaya.

明明可以走路,怎会有人宁可选择当残障人士也不愿工作?不明白。。。
当身体有缺陷的人很努力的想有正常的生活时,却也有正常的人努力想变成残障人士。。。



努力的生活着,即使卑微的工作,即使有缺陷,却也活得有尊严。。。



倘若没人可依靠,没选择时,你会选择什么?smile and embrace life or become dependant?
I know things are going on the track now...
i've went through the nadir point of these...
But i still feel that I am far away from something...
I am lost.
Am I too far away from home?
Have to be strong!

Wednesday, 7 December 2011

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I am hungry...why am I looking at food blog...stop and go to sleep!
Trying hard to beat carbohydrate craving!!
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Today was the first time I was late to work place....woke up at 6.52am despite slept earlier the night before...rushed to work at 7.15am...reached ward 7.20am...only able to review one patient and rushed to daily pass over round at 7.30am...Luckily I wasn't permanent houseman...was posted at clinic from morning until 5pm,that's the happiest moment.No ward works,yay!:) then A&E shift from 5-9pm.clerked one open fracture..Around 9pm when was about to leave,2 patients deteriorated simultaneously and needed resuscitation in the ward, which is rare occasion as there wont be many emergency cases for orthopaedics other than fat embolism, open fracture, compartment syndrome,blah blah...in reality. Stayed back to be Kepochi...to learn how to resus patient,practically.The scariest thing that i am afraid to encounter now is when patient collapses, I will be panic and alone and dont know what to do.So it is good to stay back and helped the senior houseman...So that i know what to look for next time when patient collapses.

Will be attending Basic Life Support course on 20/12/11. Hope it is helpful.

Thursday, 24 November 2011

Acute病床的一位病人今天离去了。
看着他多日了,愿以为他可以活下去的,却离开了。
而隔壁病床病得很重的病人,已经被CPR一次,Intubated两次,全身长满scabies,因为necrotising fasciitis得败血症而被迫据掉整条腿至hip joint,因为生命顽固得很,活了下来,且正康复中。大家原本以为他死定了。。。

伤感是有些,但必须转身,因为ward里一堆事情处理,连哀悼的时间都没,就必须处理病人们的点点滴滴。。。
不是没人性,只是负担不起屡次受伤,所以冷漠。

Monday, 10 October 2011

白蛇传说

看这部戏时心不在焉,很爱睡,故事情节真的不太记得,但是有留意到大美女黄圣依和这首歌,唱歌还不错。。。戏里看到很多熟悉的影子,好像在看avatar,2012,etc...

Gemuruh

其实我国也有蛮多好听的歌曲,就如这一首来自faizal tahir很有Inspiration的歌。第一次听这首歌是在大学,是马大其中一年的迎新歌~~从来都不知道这首歌什么名字,终于在facebook上看到了!
很有semangat的一首歌!



其实有时觉得马来rock song更加有看头。。。

Saturday, 8 October 2011

It's my Convo:06-10-2011!

Thanks to Hock Chai and Francios!for this cute penguin!
Skin Food facemask from Buddies!

Look yummies to skin!

Teddy bears from lovely cousin...

All the flowers that were given to me:were captured at the most brilliant moment~their colours will stay forever here....



My favourites:sunflowers and chocolates!
The cute angry birds!Thanks to ah Kiang

Thanks to Shenq Jang!

Perfume by UMITIANs~~Thanks for remembering me!


And last but not least....Ang Paus from dearest relatives!


And few more presents which I am unable to show now because my camera threw tantrum immediately after my convo...sigh!


Thanks to all!