Friday, 4 September 2009

viva voce for ENT posting

Today is our viva voce for Ear, Nose, Throat posting.
I was taken by Prof Raman.
I guess it took me around 10-15 minutes to answer his questions. you can be faster if u r good.
I didn't study very well for this posting. As my other friends used their weekend to study ENTs, i went to Langkawi for fun. But with no regrets:)
The whole 2 weeks were very hectic.1 written long case and 3 written short cases to be submitted, 1 long case and 3 short cases to be presented to "Prof" or "Lecturers" or "4th year master student".
Basically i only manage to present to 3rd year master student. Don't bother whether they wanna pass my log book or not. Just tried my best to sign all the impossible task. The department is in the shortage of human resources to teach us. It was impossible for everyone to present to prof. Anyway,I learned some useful clinical skills, such as using otoscope, do anterior rhinoscopy, etc. Most of the time was just observing. Observe how syringing(wash out the ear wax) was done, how Dr sucked out the huge ear wax via suction... But my history taking was near to zero.Need to polish myself. It's not the matter of history taking, it's about the gist and how u tie up everything.

Ok, the viva voce questions were:
1. Indications of tracheostomy-upper airway obstruction, protection of bronchial tree, broncheolavage,reduces dead space, easier access to operation.blah blah...
2. Management of epistaxis
3. A 40 year old man comes to u with right hearing loss. Take the history.(everything is normal) (sudden onset, no otalgia, otorrhea, itchiness, vertigo, tinnitus, fever,no ototoxic drug taken,no family history,occupation...)
Findings of ENT all normal. What further tests u wanna do?(Rinne and Weber test).The results were bilateral Rinne positive and Weber's test lateralised to the opposite site. Interprete.(sensorineural hearing lose of right ear) What investigation?(CT scan of head).(Diagnosis: acoustic neuroma)
4. Prof Amin: Haemotympanum

Maybe not that precise. Just to give u a picture of how it was conducted.
*i learned that perforated eardrum can be regenerated~because the epithelium can proliferate. So, my perforated eardrum is healed.
And actually we don't have to use cotton bud to dig our ears as the wax will migrate out naturally.
Wax isn't dirty, they can even moisture ur ear canal and serves as antiseptic purpose~


since when i started to become---残忍?

Since when i started to become, so mean?so cruel?so cold-hearted?
I don't like to be like that.
Yes, i am cruel when something disgust me.
Yes, i am cruel when i feel being manipulated.
讨厌人家利用我.
讨厌自由被剥夺.
想用眼泪博取我的同情心?
真的很不爽! 这样只会加强我的保护层.
There is still a border, which we are prohibited to cross.
I will nurture a strong heart. To say NO.

Friday, 21 August 2009

The Kite Runner

"There is only one sin, only one. And that is THEFT. Every other sin is a variation of THEFT.

"When you kill a man, you steal a life. You steal his wife's right to a husband, rob his children of a father.
When you tell a lie, you steal someone's right to the truth.
When you cheat, you steal the right to fairness. Do you see?"

"I am so afraid."Soraya.
"Why?"
"Because I am so profoundly happy. Happiness like this is frightening. They only let you be this happy if they're preparing to take something from you." Soraya.

"Father used to say it's wrong to hurt even bad people. Because they don't know any better, and because sometimes bad people become good."Sohrab.



The Kite Runner
-Khaled Hosseini-

Sunday, 16 August 2009

无聊第一篇

在宿舍闷得发慌了...要找老师...老师星期日不上班...没什么人在宿舍...电脑就是我的朋友...
在网上upload了一些照片。平常都没时间做的东西,就现在做吧。。。觉得有点废,但是Dr senior YC昨天说,要珍惜这种能够废废的日子,往后并不多时间给我们去浪费了。。。
在facebook downloaded了java的software,才发现upload照片可以很快很方便。。。

猜这黄狗在干嘛?
它看见我洗的书包挂在篱笆上,很好奇。。。一直吠我的书包!



还再吠,不死心,以为书包是外星人。。。
“外星人不要下来,气死我了!”

在一旁看的Jacky,"吵死了,懒得理你!"
哈哈。。。是不是很废?
其实是为了纪念黄狗的离去。。。

Saturday, 15 August 2009

漫无目的

For the past 2 months, i was hoping that my phase IIIA exam could end as fast as possible.
At that time i just aimed to pass the exam. That's all.
Work hard for it. Sacrified my freedom. Studied like a bookworm. Eventually i passed.
What a nightmare...cant imagine how i m going to face Phase IIIB exam one and half year later.
But now, i feel like i am wandering aimlessly.
Don't want to do anything. Don't feel like doing elective. So nice if i can attend the remedial class.
Even better than doing elective.
I did not plan anything for my elective yet. No Supervisor. No topic. No approach.
Yet, i have to submit my proposal by 24 August 2009.
How...How... How....?
Have to rush everything when i m back to um on 15.
Hate this kind of feeling....

Friday, 14 August 2009

哀悼

一位老师的儿子因为一场车祸而过事。。。妈妈为了这件事伤心了好几天。
虽然对那位孩子印象模糊了。。。但有见过。。。
替老师感到难过。。。
孩子是无辜的,无端端成了鲁莽驾驶的受害者。
只因为司机驾驶一百四十的时速,只因为他坐在门旁,睡觉。。。车子翻了,门开了,腾空而飞出去。。。撞倒了头,从此再也不回来了。不能想象,如果这是我亲人,我能否接受?
想象自己只是要去考undang-undang,坐上van,啊,路途很遥远,睡一个觉吧。。。然后车子剧烈摇晃,看见自己飞了出来。还不知发生了什么事情,就撞了下去。头很痛。事情发生太快了。什么都不知道。甚至不知道自己死了。。。
其实不管是谁,听了也心酸,毕竟最近吉赖发生了太多不幸的事情。。 。
不久前三个年轻人也因为一场车祸而过世。。。
看来往后妈妈又多了一个阴影,不放心我们几个兄弟姐妹驾驶了。
之前忙着应付考试,没时间向太多,如今想想,那孩子的突然离开,很伤心、很可惜。。。
为什么他的生命那么短暂?上天是不是很不公平?
借给你一个幸福,又突然被没收回的感觉,可以很痛。
一直都有在心里替他哀悼。
希望他在另一个天国过得很好。没痛楚。没烦恼。
天国存在吗?
我宁可相信它是存在的。

Tuesday, 4 August 2009

明天

明天要加油!!豁出去了!!下午一点零五分。。。一小时四十分钟后。。我得以解脱!希望顺顺利利。。。

Sunday, 2 August 2009

星期三的这一刻

星期三的这一刻,我会是什么心情呢?
是开心?开心,一个月多的痛苦终于结束了。。
是失落?想哭?想大声呐喊?后悔不够用功?因为不会Formulate diagnosis...答不到老师的问题。。。
考试怎么那么折磨人呢。。。
到底会拿什么case?怎样的病人?最重要是决定你生死的老师或教授,是谁?
明天是考long case的第一天。。。如果我明天就去考,等于送死。。。
星期三下午1点之前,我就要具备所有一年学过读过的东西。。。
发现自己还有很多东西没cover,那焦虑的心情 、心跳、胡思乱想。。。很疲惫。。。
希望星期三的这一刻。。。我会没事。。。